Re: what a dipsnit alonewith2: I will definitley have to add dipsnit to my list of words!!
I know exactly how you are feeling. My STBX has more money than me, but he doesn't know how to manage it. So here I am working part-time, paying for our house, raising our children.....but he has the nerve to keep asking me for money!! Makes me just want to slap him upside the head sometimes, too! ;D
Re: what a dipsnit starzluv: i sometime want to know where all his money goes. he makes anywhere between $00 and $800 a week and only has about $500 in bills. here i am only getting $97 a month till i can go back to work and i still have money to lend him when he needs it. drives me insain.
anyways it a little after 4 now, he's still not here, kids are being kids and driving me nuts, and i have a headache now. on a good side, only 3 more hours till i can start putting them to bed. i put them all down between 7 and 8 because no matter what time they go to bed they are all always up with the sun. i need sleep. and if the dipsnit would bother to spend some time with them today, i could ge in a nap. but don't look like that's going to happen
Re: what a dipsnit starzluv: so he still hasn't shown up, and now the kids are bugging me to call him and see when he's comming over. i will not call him. they're just too young to understand why i can't bring myself to call him. i had to call him the other day and then i hated myself for breaking and calling. if he wants to know something about me or the kids i want him to be the one to call. it was soo much easier for me not to call him when i didn't have his #. now i have it and have to fight myself not to use it.
Re: what a dipsnit alonewith2: You sound just like me during my STBX and I's first separation. It was so much better when I didn't know his phone number!!
The hardest thing is trying to make it easier for the kids without jeopardizing your own sanity. I really don't have any advice for you on this one. My STBX still does the same things....and the kids still question.
*HUGS* I hope things get better for you!
Re: what a dipsnit starzluv: well the dipsnit finally showed up and acted like a complet @ss. he did leave me my car but who knows when the next time he will be by to see the kids since he doesn't have a car now. of course he still hasn't cashed his check to pay me back, and he left the car with only a 1/4 of a tank of gas, and i have maybe $20 to last me till the 18th. i thought i would feel better having the car back so i could get things done (like go back to work), but i don't. it makes everything feel soo final even though no papers have been filed yet. he left (to walk to a friends house to get a ride back to where he's living) and i broke down. i'm just glad the kids are all in bed and not seeing me cry. i don't know why i still love him with all the crap he's put me through, and done, but i do and all i want is for him to just come home. but i refuse to bring up the subject. all i can say is if we didn't tell his parents and he came home, the money we could save or have to get things we really want. I HATE THIS!!! i hate the way i feel, i hate the way he's acting(saying one thing and do something completely different) i hate when the kids ask ME when he's comming home, i hate being alone. in all my life i have never been this alone always had friends and family around, and now i'm soo alone. if not for my kids i'd probably be in bed with the covers pulled over my head. either that, or at a bar getting drunk. this just plan sucks
