Rollercoaster takes another turn? callaway: I'm two months into the separation and I'm starting to feel really weird. Before I was sad a lot and cried my eyes out. It was totally uncontrollable. When I din't cry however I had moments of peace and I could sometimes feel like good riddance. I mostly missed having company more than I missed my x I think. When I kept occupied doing stuff I didn't feel so bad most of the time. Now I've gotten to having thoughts like "what's the use". "Life doesn't have any meaning to me". When I do stuff I normally think is funny I feel like I'm just going through the motions and not really enjoying myself. Is this depression and/or a phase in the grieving process. I've been treated for depression before and then I couldn't get myself to doing stuff. Now I have no probelm doing stuff but just don't get any satisfaction out of it??
Re: Rollercoaster takes another turn? AloneandCold: I wish there was an easy answer to this. It could be depression, but it very well could just be a stage in the grieving process. Like you said you are able to go out and do thing, so that is a good sign. Maybe just give it a bit of time. I hope the rollarcoaster takes another turn for you and you start doing better!
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Re: Rollercoaster takes another turn? RSGinATX: It could be depression...but I wouldn't rush to call it that. Its also entirely possible that your becoming emotionally numb as a defense against the emotional trauma. I've always thought the rollercoaster was a coping method. That we shut off certain emotional areas when we get fed up with feeling them, and then when we're reaching a more normal emotional state those areas turn back on but the conditions are still there so we feel like we're back to square one. I've been in that unsatisfying state before, and as someone with an extensive history of depression I knew it was something different.
Re: Rollercoaster takes another turn? RSGinATX: here's a great page on the effects of emotional trauma...
http://www.helpguide.org/mental/emotional_psychological_trauma.htm
