BAM!!--There's that brick wall.... faegonsgold: Ok, I'm not sure if this is the place for this message but just couldn't figure out where to stick this. But, here it goes:
I left my STBX four months ago. I have felt many things since then and have sought out counseling to deal with these things. But, I feel like I've hit a point--a brick wall. I feel nothing right now. I can't cry. I can barely laugh. I can't think about anything and feel deeply about it. I haven't shared my story yet in the other threads. Maybe I will when the divorce is finalized.
But, has anyone hit this point? The point you just don't feel anything? I feel nothing and have felt nothing for two weeks now. Is this normal? Am I losing my mind?
I just don't know what to do, where to go, what to say, what to think, feel, act...etc.
Re:BAM!!--There's that brick wall.... wolly1234: I wish I would hit that point, where I feel nothing. Things happened so fast, that I didn't have time to deal with pain, now that I have time, that's all I feel. I am ready for it to go away, or for the sharp edges of it to round off a bit. I am a strong man, but I'm about on my knees. Sleepless in Tucson.
Re:BAM!!--There's that brick wall.... EZ: well this post sure hit a chord with me
Thank You
i thought that it was just me
as i move forward i am feeling less and less....... the wound is healing???
im just "whatever" i dont care anymore ........i used to watch the sunrise and the sunset and see the beauty in each one and all of the moments in between...
my passion for life, for this world is all but gone.
a son and a father, a young man and an old one
just playing catch on a saturday
is this all i feel now? is it wrong?
is it wrong of me to derive all of my feelings from a baseball, two gloves and my son?
i do not know. but if its all i have left in this world, if it is the only thing that i ever get to "feel" again..... then i say so be it, i sure as heck aint gona turn that down.
i guess there are some feelings left after all :)
peace and love always
Re:BAM!!--There's that brick wall.... Safetykc: There is a turning point....my situation too happened very fast...VERY...
Most of you know the story...
I was at that point too where I woke up one day and realized I had felt nothing about the situation, not bad or good, the joy of life and living and loving came back...but not for my X..
That is the difference for me. I love LIFE...I love who I am, but I don't love her anymore....wellthe in-love thing...Weird she always wouldtell me I love you, but I am not IN LOVE with you anymore and I didn't get it, how she could have changed that...
But I guess she was just months ahead of the process as the leaver, had already reached that point. It just took me a while to catch up.
I don't have any wise advice except to say it does come back, the feeling that is...just like when your foot goes to sleep and get's numb, eventually the pins and needles come back. It hurts at first, but eventually the blood flows normally again...and so will your feelings.
Take care.
Safety
Re:BAM!!--There's that brick wall.... Brian75034: Feeling nothing is a natural reaction to something so traumatic. Your body/mind cant handle the intense feelings for so long. I view it as a defense mechanism.
Its ok to feel that way BUT dont allow yourself to stay numb. Work through your feelings. Its the only way in order to someday feel all the GOOD things in life that are out there for you to experience. Maybe not today but someday.
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