Re:BAM!!--There's that brick wall.... faegonsgold: My counselor told me today that I am very tough to get through. It's just not my nature to show emotion that deep. To me, that's a sign of weakness. Too many people I know have this perception of me as being a strong person. I'm just not so sure I want people to see the weak side of me. But at the same time, I hate feeling this numb.
Re:BAM!!--There's that brick wall.... incoherentlonghorn: My therapist calls me the Ice Queen. As you know, there is a happy median and I have discovered that when you slowly move towards it some relations with coworkers/friends/kids improve significantly.
It's worth experimenting with. Good luck.
Re:BAM!!--There's that brick wall.... wolly1234: You are so young. So very young. I can't even remember 24. Wish I could go back, only with the knowlwdge I have now. BOYYYY would things be different. Don't fret, it's a long road. Trust me,, numb ain't a bad thing. Know how many beers it takes me to get numb? And you're doing it for free!!!
Re:BAM!!--There's that brick wall.... faegonsgold: Thanks everyone for replying. My brick wall is slowly disappearing. I've recently met a great person who is showing me the better side of life and I'm actually laughing again. Also, I went out to my parents' garage at 1:30 am because I couldn't sleep and started going through all my stuff and putting it in totes. It was very hard to do because (1) it was very cold out there and (2) I kept crying whenever I'd come across something that either (a) had to do with the wedding or (b) had to do with him specifically. I guess that's a sign that I'm coming back around again. I just hope I don't become a floodgate though. :-\
