Discovered news yesterday NHGIRL: Well I finally got the courage to post yesterday, under Why Now? I have been feeling horrible lately due to the dust settling. My divorce was finalized in July. And now that it is over and the house is sold, I feel like it has hit me all at once. I got some really supportive responsives and was feeling a little better.
Well then all that was crushed within moments. I found out yesterday that my exhusband does in fact have a girlfriend. It's a long story but, I came across an email that was sent to him from her in August that say I LOVE YOU. WTF!!! How can they already be in love. Our divorce was just finalized in July and he only told me he wanted a divorce in March. Now I have so many questions? How long has he been seeing her? Why? I know that I can't beat myself up about this, but I just feel sick to my stomach now. How is this happening to me.
I feel like I am living someone else's life right now. I feel like such an idiot for believing all his lies during this entire process. Not that he was ever going to admit to having a girlfriend but I asked him on more than one occassion if there was someone else. And he swore up and down that there was nonone else. Now I find out there is. I don't know how to handle all this.
I know I will never get the answers that I am searching for, but before I knew about this OW I was trying to find a way to make peace with everything and work on accepting it and move on. Now this is another layer on the cake. I feel as if I am back to square one with my feelings. I didn't sleep at all last night, I can't eat and I feel sick to my stomach. How could he have lied to me like that? Did I really mean that little to him? I just don't understand.
Re: Discovered news yesterday twobeautifulkids: I posted almost the same thing on the vent board a few days ago. It sucks. I know. I'm sorry. :( It's a 2 steps forward, 1 step back thing. ((HUGS))
Take care.
Re: Discovered news yesterday unhappy: kinda am going through the same thing--try not to analize things it only makes it worse.good luck to you--
Re: Discovered news yesterday NHGIRL: I try not ot over analyze this, but I feel that is all I am doing. It is just so hard to get it out of my mind. I wish I could. It just makes me feel sick. I never thought he was the kind of man that would hurt me the way he has. And the worst part is that he doesn't even have an idea of how badly he has hurt me. He just doesn't get it. He is just going on with his everyday life as if nothing ever happened. How is that possible?
Re: Discovered news yesterday Trillian: I remember when I found out that the reason that my 2nd ex started pushing a divorce after months and MONTHS of asking to get back together was because he had a gfriend. OHHH I cried for days. I also think that it is a 2 step forward - one or three steps back alot of the time. I am soooo sorry that you have had to deal with this.
<<<<<<HUGS>>>>>>>
