so sick of the game dystopika: 1st stages of divorce. packing my things and trying to find a new place to live. met a girl a few months ago and something briefly flared up once it was clear my marriage was over (wife walked out a year ago), but that spark is officially extinguished as of last night.
i've been alone and living in limbo for over a year now. i'm so sick of the game. i need to avoid getting involved with emotionally crippled alcoholics. (like my STBX, like this recent girl.)
i turn 30 in january and i'm just so tired of chasing girls. i hate that i'm back in this stupid singles dating pool. everybody's always got an eye open for something better.
not to imply that i need to be in a relationship to be "happy", but when all your friggin friends are either married or in serious relationships -- as supportive as they may be, it just highlights my odd-man-out status. put on a happy face and pretend like it doesn't faze me when they cuddle in front of me.
i'm so tired. deep in my bones. i could be alone for the rest of my life. there's not much left to love. too tired today to hate.
Re: so sick of the game jadedangel: [color=navy"> Don't think your the only person who feels like this -- there are a few of us. It's the happy face --- that sometimes gets to us .. but never lets on that we care.
Hang in there .... [/color">
