Re: I'm fooling myself Falcon554: God we all go thru the same thing. I want my life back to, but not the marriage I had, I want to make that marriage so much more then it was but I dont think ill ever get the chance with her. She has change so much in just 5 month its scary. I to have change tho. For the better I hope. I can make it on my own but I would much rather make it with her right beside me.
Hang in there this is the worse thing I think anyone can go thur.
Re: I'm fooling myself Erin: I guess it is that I am still in shock. I never saw it coming, didn't want it to happen and still don't want it to be happening.
I know it is his issues. I know it it not all me. I know it takes two to tango and all that jazz but this current situation has been created completely by him. If I had my way, we'd be dealing with this instead of fighting about cds and selling the house.
This week has been so hard. I thought I was doing ok, but I can't keep it together this week. I'm back to crying all the time, not sleeping and losing my appetite. Today, I just can't take it. I've been up since 4am, and I just don't want to feel this way anymore. My mom and friend have called already this am and I can't bring myself to answer the phone.
I just want my life back. I don't feel like I belong anywhere right now. I want to call him, but I know that won't do any good. I don't know what to do that will fix this. This is all a big mistake.
Sorry, I am just having a really rough morning.
Re: I'm fooling myself Falcon554: [quote author=spinningincircles link=topic=21044.msg196765#msg196765 date=1130694788">
I guess it is that I am still in shock. I never saw it coming, didn't want it to happen and still don't want it to be happening.
I know it is his issues. I know it it not all me. I know it takes two to tango and all that jazz but this current situation has been created completely by him. If I had my way, we'd be dealing with this instead of fighting about cds and selling the house.
This week has been so hard. I thought I was doing ok, but I can't keep it together this week. I'm back to crying all the time, not sleeping and losing my appetite. Today, I just can't take it. I've been up since 4am, and I just don't want to feel this way anymore. My mom and friend have called already this am and I can't bring myself to answer the phone.
I just want my life back. I don't feel like I belong anywhere right now. I want to call him, but I know that won't do any good. I don't know what to do that will fix this. This is all a big mistake.
Sorry, I am just having a really rough morning.
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Im with you, I thought my tears were gone to but they come back almost everyday. Some people can get over this much easier then others.
Just hang in there thats what im doing, not a good job at it but im trying.
Re: I'm fooling myself ya_crow: Oh Hun,
I feel for you, I really do. We will all come out the other side of this. It's just so hard on the weak days, the doubts, the panic, the regrets all come flooding to the forefront.
I'm here for you anytime.
Re: I'm fooling myself BONILLAK: I feel for you. I wish I could have life as I knew it back about 5 yrs ago. At one time I was happily married, a stay at home Mom and loved cooking, cleaning and taking care of my house. Now I have to look for work, put kids in daycare and do this all on my own. My life was so simple a couple years ago and now its in turmoil. I look at life now like this....I don't like who my husband became or how I become towards the end of this marriage. My children suffered due to high tension in the house. My husband through away his family like we were yesterdays garbage. Now he comes to me with his problems(ex. needs a car, etc.) These are not my problems anymore. At one time it was our problem now its his personal problem. He left home, he ditched us, his car, his clothing, etc. He told me he didn't need a damn thing or anyone. Now he can figure out his own crap. My concern is me and my 3 kids. I say my kids because he doesn't act like they are ours, he acts like they are mine so they will be. I refuse to be nice and cooperate with him on anything more than what the law says I have to as he made his own bed now. He had a car, a home, 3 kids, a wife, clean clothes, cooked meals, etc., etc. Now what he lacks in his life is his problem! I care for him as he was once a wonderful, caring person that I loved and chose to marry, I will always have a special love for him as we created 3 great kids together but I will never respect, trust or even like him ever again for a man/woman who walks away from their family doesn't deserve that from me. I deserve to be treated with the same respect as I give. I will someday find exactly what I'm looking for when I get 100% on my feet and he will see all we could have had and be the real loser.
Get yourself together, realize he is who he is and thats not a nice person any more, pick yourself up, dust off and move on. Realize you deserve someone to appreciate you, realize what you are worth and you will be fine! Its been 2 months for me too but I refuse to long for someone who is a creep.
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