Re: What is your drug of choice? Jessy_Miami: [quote author=Raul link=topic=21060.msg197322#msg197322 date=1130812322">
And Jessy, my wife (separated) is the same. She is going out and needing attention from every man she can. She is beautiful, busty and curvy.
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I just saw her brother connect to MSN, it had the little yellow star (which means he has an active MSN Spaces blog) next to the name, so out of curiosity i Checked his blog/photo album.. and there was his sister (my separated wife) looking incredibly beautiful partying in Macondo (a club in Miami) in what seems to be SEVERAL pictures with hundreds of guys (including a divorced co-worker, she recently told me was hitting on her)
This is the kind of thing that for the life of me I will never understand... believe or not, this kind of things help me realize she was not the right person, it helps me heal somehow...
god she is beautiful.
Re: What is your drug of choice? Raul: Damm Jessy! I couldn't handle that! My wife is so beautiful too- and I couldn't bear to see her dancing with someone else- especially how she dances (grinding- like high school girls do). And I refuse to check out any club websites- cause I know that If I try to find her- I probably would. I think you are strong emotionally to have able to deal with it. I would go insane.
The hard part for me is not visualizing her having sex with other men. Especially when she told me recently that she is on birth control pills now. I didn't want to know that. But I think she knows that is killing me.
Stay strong.
Raul
Re: What is your drug of choice? Jessy_Miami: [quote author=Raul link=topic=21060.msg197371#msg197371 date=1130820323">
Stay strong.
Raul
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Yeap, I know.. its hard. However, every time I see her I tell her exactly the same thing, I encourage her to live her life fully, to enjoy and party if thats what she wants. That makes her feel better (she evidently feels guilt), and it feels like I knife to my heart when I find out she's been partying...
I think this is part of the healing process and it helped me learn a very important lesson in life. You can't make others do what you want them to do.. everyone has free will and a concience, if what she is doing feels good to her, theres absolutely nothing I can do about it.
Will she have sex with other men? of course.. they will hug her, kiss her, AND she will love them more than she loved me, that is a fact it's inevitable. but can I change it? no! ;)
