Im not so damn bad Falcon554: After reading some of your stories im not such a bad man after all. My wife makes me out like I was horrible.
Yea I have a temper, I have broke a few phone in my day, I did ignore her to a point over the last 4 years, I got addicted to games like Everquest. I do yell a bit, like watching football.
But I never, cheated, hit her, called her fat (she was 190lbs at one time and I could care less), I was always home, I was there for her in the bedroom most of the time.
Yea I have my problems with control and im working on those, the things I did do to her im so damn sorry for. But what I got in return is something i never deserved and finnally she said the it to me the other day.
The affair, the other guys, the being led on for 5 months, the feeling I was being used everyway you could use someone.
Im a good moral man with some issues I need to work on but im not a bad guy like she made me feel so many times these last 5 months.
Re: Im not so damn bad Wolfman: That's nice to know Falcon,
i'll tell you one thing though after all the advice i've given and taken, i still feel like this huge part of me wants to call this woman...uurrrgghh i can't belive how strong this urge keeps coming..
Re: Im not so damn bad BONILLAK: Isn't it funny how after the break up we can honestly see ourselves and our faults? I always disagreed with him over what my faults were. I now see them which is good that I do so I can work on them now as when I marry again I should be close to perfect.LOL
Re: Im not so damn bad Falcon554: Well I talk to my wife everyday, we have had a tuff 3 weeks with me seeing a pic of the man she had the affair with, i got a bit nuts. But thats over now. She has been my best friend and thru all this crap I was her best friend and its funny ill still be her friend when things finally settle down.
You cant be with someone from age 16 to 37 without some kinda of bond, we dont hate eachother even with all the crap that has gone on, we never will either. There still love there just not the love I need. Who knows in 6 months it might be there or it might not. But now I do need to move on and find someone who cares for me for me.
But this woman as crazy as she is now will always hold a place in my heart and soul and god help any man that hurts her ill be on him like you know what.
Thats my girl not theres. (see I cried when I wrote that). Thats the woman who I held her hand as my daughter was born. god I miss her so much.
Re: Im not so damn bad BONILLAK: Falcon,
I was also with my husband from the age of 16 until now at 34. Yes I will always love him in my own way but people do change and the person he changed into I don't really like anymore. I do miss the man I married, was in love with, the man who held my hand while our children were born, the man who once thought I was gold and vice versa. It really helped me along in all this by seeing the difference in the man I married to the man he is today. Some people change for the better and some for the worse. Mine decided to take a whole new persona on and the person he is now I wouldn't even be friends with but I must to an extent for the sake of 3 children. I still love and care about him because of our long history together and some days I do long for the him who was but I must face the facts that he is a new person but I love what he once was. Am I making any sense?LOL
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