I went to that deep dark place. Never want to go back. BarbJo: I just wanted to tell everyone what happened to me this weekend. I am going to make a long long story short.
My STBXH came over on Friday night and told me he was not in love with me anymore. It hurt so bad. He wouldn't even give me any answers nor did he want to talk about it. I was soooo upset. I did the unthinkable. I took my whole bottle of Xanax. I called my sister right after and the police and ambulance were here within 15mins. I am ok now. I don't know why I did it. I just did. I didn't want to die I just wanted the pain to stop. I have been through so much the past 6 months. All the hurt and tears got wrapped up in the deep dark tunnel that I couldn't get out of. I will never do anything like that again. I never want to get to that place again. I know that if anything came out of what I did is that there is NO going back now. I am trying to stay focused on me now. Not all the bad things that have happened to me and been done to me. It's going to take me a long time but I will get there.
Barbjo
Re: I went to that deep dark place. Never want to go back. BONILLAK: I'm so glad your ok and no real harm was done. NO ONE is worth doing this for! You are worth so much more!
Re: I went to that deep dark place. Never want to go back. Trying2Hope: Been there. That dark place where all seems hopeless.
A simple idea has brought me back to where I am hopeful and looking forward to the future.
Whenever your emotions seem out of control, realize this: No matter how bad it gets, it will always get better. Emotions don't stay the same. If you are depressed 100 times, 100 times you will feel better. If you feel angry 100 times, 100 times you will feel better.
It's a rule of human existence ... emotions don't last forever.
With love,
T2H
Re: I went to that deep dark place. Never want to go back. jonpc: I went to that dark place too. When i heard the same thing you heard from my wife I took 3 xanax, a handful of pain killers, drank a pint of rum, went out and crashed my car and got a dui. Boy...i really showed her, huh. I don't want to go back there either. I am embarassed at my behavior...that I let her get to me like that. She is not worth it....neither is your stbx
Re: I went to that deep dark place. Never want to go back. flyaway: :( BarbJo,
I'm so glad that you lived! Someone once told me that the best revenge is living well. Key word there: [font=Verdana"> Living