ARRRGGGG! why is this ripping me apart.... redmacaw1: I haven't been posting much, but have been lurking.
My stbxw left me 4 months ago, I didn't know it was coming I just find out when I get home and most everything is gone.
Any now I learn that she met some dope on matchdotcom and has been having sex with him on the first date. This totally destroyed me, I was not prepared for this news at all. We aren't divorced, hell the sheets on the bed are barely cooling down and she runs out and does this !! What the hell, you sl*t!
Why am I so torn up ??? You already did your damage. Why is this hurting worse than you just leaving in the night. Why do I feel more betrayed now than ever?
I am so mad and so sad all at the same time. My head is pounding and the tears are literally running down my face as I pound on the keyboard.
God, and to think I wanted to try and make this work.
I hope you catch something and it rots off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Re: ARRRGGGG! why is this ripping me apart.... Trillian: Sounds like you are still hurting from her leaving and the reason this hurts soooo bad is because you still care for her and maybe are wishing that you could work this out. And with her doing this it is making you realize that that may not happen. I am soooo sorry that you are going through this, but at least you found out now, instead of getting back with her and then finding out. Although, I know that that doesn't help with the pain. And that you are hurting sooo bad. I am sorry to hear about it.
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Re: ARRRGGGG! why is this ripping me apart.... ya_crow: Red,
I recently had the same experience, my ex told me how she has been seeing someone else and it ripped my heart right from my chest. I haven't been able to deal with examining why it hurts so much yet so I've just tried to put it to the back of my mind, fill my mind with other stuff, stay busy, ignore it etc. But every so often when I find myself off guard it pops into my mind, and it feels exactly like a kick in the n*ts, I feel sick, I feel rejected all over again, I feel as bad if not worse than I did when she left.
Some of the reasons it hurts so much is that if the other person moves on quicker than we do (in my case it took her a month) it casts doubt on how they felt about us in the first place. I mean if I'm heartbroken and she's not, she must have been lying when she said she loved me?
Also if someone leaves us, we'd always like to think we deserve to heal quicker, that'd be fair right? It never seems to happen that way though, the one who leaves doesn't have to deal with the feelings of rejection, the feeling that the situation is beyond their control and so they dwell less and move on quicker. It sucks but it's a trend I've noticed.
Red, use the anger to propel your own life forward, use this to motivate yourself towards healing. To recover and be happy again is the ultimate way to get your own back. For amny of us that is still a long way away but it will happen.
Every day you spend crying, sad & angry is a day of your life you are allowing her to take from you. She doesn't deserve it, you deserve to enjoy life. Keep posting when you need to, lurk if that's how you feel, do whatever feels like it's helping. I hope this passes for you soon.
Re: ARRRGGGG! why is this ripping me apart.... redmacaw1: I can't thank you enough for the support !!!
I know most of us have been there. By my god, the pain is unbelievable.
I have thrown up twice today.
I can't stand this.... You F***king Wh**E ! i hope you get what is coming to you !
Re: ARRRGGGG! why is this ripping me apart.... vinhboy: ouch bro. ouch. thats all i can really say.
