Damn song ... jadedangel: [color=navy"> So ... yet another day of classes --- good and bad to them. Long day of just crap I don't want to always listen to. But, it forces me to do something that has nothing to do with thinking about him. So ... after listening to all the in's and out's of blood transfusion and DIC ... I was feeling okay. I was chit chatty with one of my friends .. and said goodbye --- see ya later ----
So I step on to the shuttle to get back to my car --- there is music playing. It is 'our' song. People all around --- and omg ... I hadn't heard that song for months ... I just sat there--- somewhat stunned. My mind a blur. It was strange. I felt so strangely emotionless. I wanted to cry -- but couldn't. I wanted to smile -- but couldn't. I wanted just that stupid song to bring back everything it had ever given me. I wanted him to sing it again to me ... completely drunk in the field that it first became so meaningful. It was just a damn song. I wanted it back ... yet I wanted it to just go away.
I get off the shuttle ... say my thank you --- Happy Halloween's ... pretend that life was as happy as it ever could be. But, after getting to my car -- it always catches up. I need these little things to just go away. I only allow one tear --- I don't have time for anything more right now (hell I have already contributed days on end to this sadness) but it's so strange how I am just consumed with this feeling --- one I cannot explain.
So much for the temporary relief of a weekend and it's folies... [/color">
Re: Damn song ... husky: These little things can just kill a person, can't they?
By the way, what song is it??
Re: Damn song ... genesplicer: Hey JA, sorry to hear you had to deal with that after having a good weekend. Just remember that it's a temporary setback, but you are moving forward. Heck, getting out this weekend and having some fun proves that. It's a damn slow process though.
And on the bright side, you could have been at a family weddng getting drunk off your ass when you heard the song for the first time. Not a pretty sight. ::)
Hope you're feeling better today! :)
Re: Damn song ... ga_sunshyne: I know how you feel jaded. "Our" song was "Forever Yours, Faithfully". So much for it meaning anything at all to him. I do the exact same thing everytime I hear that song. It just tears me up.
Sorry you were having such a crappy day.
Big HUGGS to you
Sunshyne
Re: Damn song ... qualt:
And on the bright side, you could have been at a family weddng getting drunk off your ass when you heard the song for the first time. Not a pretty sight. ::)
yeah that is to true i heard our song at a wedding while i was drunk..... i left, crying.
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