Why .. jadedangel: [color=navy"> Why do I still do it? Why do I still look to him for an explanation … why do I think that suddenly he will make me understand? A year ago … we were discussing marriage … and now we have become nothing more than ‘buddies’ ….. How am I ever going to make sense of this? How does a person just throw that away? What makes someone change their mind so easily? Why should I ever trust in the thought again? It’s not like I could simply take him back without knowing what this last 8 months has been like … it’s not him I want back. I want to understand it. I miss my best friend – the one that died in him.
I feel like such a hypocrite … like I shouldn’t post sometimes ..coz well --- you have told me NC … and I don’t listen. It’s not like I don’t try … but obviously I don’t try hard enough. I just …. How is the person I was devoted to – supposed to not mean anything to me anymore? This isn’t right …
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Re: Why .. alonewith2: He CAN still mean something to you. He was a part of your life, and it will be hard to just forget that whole section of your life. But sometimes you just have to take it as just that....a section of your life, not ALL of it! You had a life before him, and you CAN have a life after him. Remember him for the good times and the man he was. Be thankful that you have those memories, but don't forget the bad times, too. There's lessons to be learned there.
Re: Why .. husky: hi angel,
we are killling ourselves with all these questions.
'how does a person just throw that away?', 'how is the person i was devoted to supposed to not mean anything to me anymore' ....
the fact is, he had done it. he had thrown it away. knowing how he does that won't change anything. the result will still be the same. i realised that now. he can throw it away because he doesn't love you as much as you thought he did, nor as much as you did.
he still means a lot to you. you can care for him as a friend (if you can bring yourself to think that way).
l'm in the same s%#t as you, torturing myself with all these questions. but i do realise that understanding how or why won't bring them back.
Re: Why .. jadedangel: [color=navy"> Thanks for your words guys --- I know I ask questions without answers ..... the problem is-- I keep asking them -- and to the person that is the most inappropriate to ask them of.
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