The decision i made today malex1984: Hi Guys,
I have only been stumbling around this site for 1 day but after reading many of your stories and supportive advice i have made the final decisions.
My ex left me after 5 years of happiness and we have been broken up for 2.5 months, we have tried to give each other space and have no contact but it never seems to last for more than a week. We have started talking a little recently but she has changed so much from the girl i used to love and i can't begin a friendship with her after she cheated on me and just left so simply without even dropping a tear at any stage.
She wants to be friends but not talk about any of our personal choices or decisions and i personally dont think that is much of a friendship anyway. She doesnt want to talk about our relationship either, i miss her everyday and still wish i could have everything back the way it was but i have decided that the no contact is the way to go. She recently said in an email that she still enjoys spending time with me and would like to see me but i just cant, i know that she has moved on and everyone says she cant have her cake and eat it too.
Whenever i see her i feel sick and so nervous around the girl i worshipped for so long and trusted with everything, and i cant bare to imagine her with this other guy.
So today i decided that i will have no contact with her as it is only taking me backwards whenever i see or speak to her.
I am going to join the local gym after 2.5 months of tossing and turning on this decision, to make myself feel better about myself. I never realised how much confidence i took from being with her.
I am going to buy the new car i wanted for a long time but never did due to different priorities and trying to make sure she had everything to make her happy.
It is really daunting leading into the christmas and holiday period without her but i know that i need to lift myself out of this depression because no one else will.
I'll see how i go and i know that the last 2 months have been a really bad rollercoaster for me but i just have to take it one day at a time and try and break these horrible feelings that i have everyday.
I am really scared that i will be pushing her further away especially if she tries to contact me and i knock her back but i know emotionally it is the best thing for me at the moment.
What do you all think?
Re: The decision i made today malex1984: ok first update,
she just sent me an sms to say goodluck for my uni exam tomorrow.
I didnt reply, is this the right thing or should i just say thankyou and try to leave it?
Re: The decision i made today cariad: you should probably not respond....
