one month passes EssieDotCom: one month passes since I've seperated from him. The kids and I are doing fine, besides the fact that I need to find a good job. I don't really miss him much. I try not to think about, talk to, or have contact with him. and as long as I'm not doing any of those things I don't lose it. But i find that when he emails me from the ship or calls here, I lose it. I can't even look him in the face wit hout having a break down. And still no tears from him. Just a little grumple from him when we first moved over the phone with "what you dont think any of this is effecting me?" to which I said, it's funny how you can't go into the kids bedrooms because you are hurting but you're perfectly fine walking into our bedroom and sleeping on our bed alone. He said nothing and to me silence says a million things. Screw it! I deserve much better than him, don't I?
Re: one month passes jadedangel: [quote author=EQwidowX2B link=topic=21577.msg201731#msg201731 date=1131889425">
Screw it! I deserve much better than him, don't I?
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[color=navy"> I think you have answered your own question. I don't really have to affirm it -- but, yeah you do. Seriously, your going to be great in the end --- you know already that you are doing fine.
There will be times when you lose it -- but you know you can find your way back. Stay strong for your kids. A good job will come -- things have to get better right?
I know that ... silence says a million things -- I feel them. It never was the words he said ... it was the actions -- they told me volumes.[/color">
