Your home sparks: Dear D,
You finally made it home after 18 months in Iraq. I'm happy that you made it home safe. Im glad the kids were able to be at your welcome home ceremony. Im glad I was there too. I think I handled my self very well. I didnt cry or get upset until 4 am this morning when I woke up crying. I miss you. I saw you and felt all the love in my heart for you all over again. It hurts knowing that you dont feel the same for me.
Ive been thinking this morning about the past two years. I realized that I am a better, happier person now and that maybe the divorce was a good thing. The divorce is not the hard part. It is the way it ended. I loved you and trusted you with everything I had. I had such loyalty to you and I was so proud to be your wife. That is worth respect if not love. You cheated, lied and betrayed me. You took my kids away for two weeks without letting me contact them. You were mean and spiteful to me. We had 13 years together and two kids. Wasnt that worth anything?
Im sorry things did not work out between us. After G was born I became a very different person than the one you married. I accept my part in the breakup. I accept that our marriage is over. I have a hard time with way you left.
I will always love you. I know that now after seeing you again. And I will work at keeping my emotions in check and developing a good parenting relationship with you. It will be hard at first. I still carry anger and hurt in my heart but I will eventually get there. I hope one day you will be able to look at me and say "Im sorry." Until then I pray for all of us to make it through this difficult time and that we all come out on the other end as better people. (even her, especially her)
I love you and I miss you,
Shirley
