I feel so stupid... tnk: Hello...
Hope no one minds my sharing. So for the past few weeks, I've been feeling pretty good. Actually feeling a calm and peace that I've not felt in a long time in regards to the breakup I had. I don't know if anyone recalls, I guy I had been seeing for almost 3 years left me, said he needed to work on himself, couldn't deal with a lot of issues in our relationship, etc. Well, I hadn't thought of him in a while, doing pretty well. Actually had coffee and later the same night, a movie with a really nice gentleman. New gentleman friend had previous plans with sons and such for Thanksgiving holiday and my children were with their father out of town, so what did dumb me do? I called up the ex boyfriend and asked if he wanted to get together. Why? Beats the heck out of me. I suppose I got lonely and with kids gone and new friend busy, I wanted something familar. Anyways, went to ex boyfriends house, talked and laughed like we used to. Ended up getting late and I fell asleep at his house. Next day (Thanksgiving), spent the whole day with him, just talking and laughing and watching football games. Then was time to go. He gave me a hug bye, I for some God awful reason, said "I love you" and he said "I love you too" and that was it. Then today I called him to ask a computer question. He answered the question and then starts acting like the last two days didn't even happen, almost hostile and like an asshole. Don't get it and I feel so stupid for letting that "I love you" blurt out. I could kick myself, especially since I was doing so well and really feeling as though I had came so far in my recovery of this breakup. Why did I do that to myself? I"m not hurt as much as I feel really stupid. His attitude towards me before hanging up just kinda reminds me of a few reasons we didn't get along at times. Because he could be such an asshole at times. "sigh"
Would someone just thump me on the head please?...
Thank you all for letting me get this off my chest and for listening...
Re: I feel so stupid... minneapolis: It's okay, that kind of stuff happens. I did the same thing after my husband left me. Despite trying to be strong and stoic, I told him I loved him and wanted him back 4 months after he left.
Nothing you can do about it now. Just forget about it and move forward with no contact.
Re: I feel so stupid... freovir: *thump* that is for being human. . . . how about you work on THAT?? ::)
--fre
