Re: back to square one turboss: Thankyou guys so much! I just wonder are we going to make it through this? Years, really? Am I going to last for years?
GG, your message touched me so deeply that I almost cried AGAIN..it hit home so much and I know I shouldn't be "feeling better" about someone else hurting like me...but it helped to know that I wasn't the only one at home being "miserable"...
Dumpling, thank you too for helping me see that I am not the ONLY one in this world that thinks this is inappropriate behavior for them to be going everywhere together...I AM going to take your advice though and continue to conduct myself appropriately.
Whirlpool...like gg says YEARS??? really (have I already asked that?) LOL
thanks guys
turboss
Re: back to square one Sittingbear: Turboss
time to get tough... and grow some rhino skin..
Cause this resentment will become a poison to your happy
goals...
i would stand in the mirror and say to myself ..
I am stronger than this...I know what I want,,I know
what I need...and I will survive this too...
sittingbear
Re: back to square one sparks: I know just how you feel. I was doing very well. Its been a year and a half since my ex husband left me. He also left for Iraq. He came back Wednesday, the day before Thanksgiving. Now I feel I am starting all over again. He is living with his girlfriend and of course when he takes our children, they are with both of them. I have found myself not sleeping again, not eating and crying, hard again. I thought I had moved past this stage but apparently not.
I got past it for a little while, I can only hope that I will do it again.
Re: back to square one PickingUpThePieces: The holidays were tough for me too. It's also been 3 months for me and for the most part I'd felt like I was doing better. Then last week hit and I felt sad and depressed and didn't want to be around anyone. I couldn't stand to hear people talk about their husbands/families because all I could think was, "My husband tossed me aside. He doesn't want me anymore, and now I'm alone." Some pain has come back although I have to say it is not the sharp, constant pain it was at the beginning...it is more an ache, an emptiness. Then I have moments where I feel better and more content. I suppose it is just part of the "fun" of riding this roller coaster.
Re: back to square one turboss: omg....You guys, i really WANT to feel better and I was so proud of myself for feeling better and moving on...just day for day...and like pickingupthepieces said it isn't the same feelings as in the beginning...it is just loneliness and emptiness...and I also thought I was over the bitterness but it struck something in me to know that MY baby was over there with this devil woman acting like she is part of MY family...and I just want to hurt her so bad....I hope after the first of the year and after the holidays that we can all feel better and get over this....but, for now...i am going to try my best to squeeze myself in that Rhino skin and don't let them hurt me....I am just confused and I just don't see how either one of them can be so proud and so bold to show their faces in public!!! The resentment and bitterness is killing me inside and making all of the sweetness that I have turn bad as if I am putting up this wall to EVERYONE and I am so defensive and try to act so hard b/c I don't want to allow anyone else to hurt me anymore.
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