Re: So glad I found OJAR... dragonfly: Thanks BlackAndBlue!
I felt the same way about therapy. I'm very good at my masks...very good at putting a good face forward and making the world outside believe that I truly am okay and doing wonderful. At first therapy was helping, but then I found myself covering up my feelings and not getting what I felt I needed to out of it. Nothing against my therapist, I have gone back for what she calls "boosters" but when she told me that I didn't need to see her on a regular basis any longer, I thought that I had fooled even her and I didn't even mean to or try.
I think for me it boiled down to me wanting to believe that the things I was saying in therapy were true...and they seemed to be for a while, but then I started having doubts about how far in my healing I've truly come. That why I was so glad to have found this site.
It helps so much to read about similar stories, people with anger and hurt like mine, thoughts like mine and to know that I don't have to wear masks here...I can say what is really in my head and heart...and won't be judged.
I love my friends and family dearly, but they are tired of listening and not understanding just what I'm going through, inspite of their best intentions, it's hard for them to be there for me on this topic anymore. They've all moved on from it...so why haven't I...but I love them anyway. ;D
Thanks again!
