at my lowest eeyore0512: It's been 2 months since hubby up and kicked me out. I find it so unfair that he has a home. I'm stuck at my parents house. I long for privacy. I long to go back home. I feel as if I don't belong anywhere. I feel as if I'm intruding on my parents time together, and when I hang out with friends I feel as if I'm invading their spaces. All my friends are married and have children. Everyone has tried to be so supportive, but they are all getting angry with me for being so depressed. I find it hard to smile or laugh. I am just so hurt and angry. My hubby gets the house and all our things. I have nothing. Now because of this I have no home, and if I can find an apartment of my own, I know it will never be a home. I would never be able to pursue my hobbies of cooking, baking and gardening. No one understands that it's pointless to cook a meal just for yourself, and you can't surprise yourself with baking cookies, and apartment complexes don't come with yards for gardening. The holidays are coming. I have no money, and no way of making the season special for anyone. I've spent everyday these last 2 months crying myself to sleep. I feel as if I'm at my breaking point. I have nothing, I have no one to talk to. I just want to disappear. I'm sure no one would notice.
Re: at my lowest emcee: i feel you about not being able to make the holidays special for anyone. right now you are stuck in the "alone even when surrounded by people" phase. maybe as a christmas gift from your parents or something you could get some counseling or something along those lines. is that possible? remember we are here for you
Re: at my lowest HeartBrokenDemon: Hey... hang in there please, I know what you going through, life is tough at the moment for you, and I felt the same way as you 7 months ago. Believe me things ll get better. I know your angry because your hubby got every thing but what you can do is go out and get your self a job and start fresh new life. You ll be ok....................................................................................
Re: at my lowest hurtnlost: Why did your hubbie get everything? What were the circumstances? Just wondering how you could come out with nothing. .
My only piece of advice is do not let this man stop your happiness. He is not stopping his so for yourself pick yourself up and make yourself move on. Find a job you might like and work on yourself and everything else should come with time.
Re: at my lowest TaoChick: Hi eeyore,
As my marriage grinded to a halt, I was crying all of the time. I finally went to a doc that put me on antidepressants. Those helped enormously in terms of coping with the fallout of my marriage. They didn't make the sadness or tears entirely disappear, but instead kept me from seeing EVERYTHING in gloom-n-doom terms. From what you wrote, it sounds as if you're in a serious bout of depression. Getting some relief from this situationally-induced depression would, I expect, help a great deal.
I would bet that you're not at all burdening your friends and family. YOU may think that you're expected to be cheerful and happy around them, but I seriously doubt they expect that from you. You're going through an extremely traumatic period, and I'm sure they understand that. After all, this is in part what friends and family are for. The holidays are especially rough. But you do have someone who very much needs for this season to be made special for ... YOU! I recommend making a concerted effort to make this holiday season special for you. You deserve it and need it more now than ever.
TC
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