whoaaaaaaa EssieDotCom: :( not so much as a vent but more of a whoaaaaa
I try not to talk to him as often, and try not to put energy into the conversations as much... but i had to talk to him today bc he called to talk to the kids and i tried to make some light conversation and no matter how strong i am on the end of that phone when i had up my heart smacks me in the face again. I just feel so Whoaaaaaa... save me. I dont want to put anymore engery into things bc that allows me to feel and i dont want to feel any of this right now ???
Re: whoaaaaaaa TrueBlue: EQW
I know exactly what you mean. My husband and I are still in the same house, but thankfully we don't see much of each other - our hours are totally different. I try to keep the conversations to a minimum - logistics concerning the boys. But, once in a while he wants to talk to me and I just can't handle it. I go through my daily routine without too much trouble, and I can cope pretty well. Until I have to converse with him. On Friday, I just told him that I don't want to talk to him any more because it's too upsetting. I don't know how to talk to him or even what to talk to him about. So, I told him I would be grateful if he tried to keep our interaction to a minimum.
Anyway, He was out of town yesterday. My eldest sprained his ankle, my youngest has a high fever and I wish he weren't in the house because I could deal with everything better without him.
All this to say - I understand what you are saying. Everytime we talk I want to cry. And sometimes I do. (most times)
HUGS
Re: whoaaaaaaa ChiefWiggum: [quote author=EQwidowX2B link=topic=22602.msg210121#msg210121 date=1134259339"> I dont want to put anymore engery into things [/quote">
I know the feeling. I just slept March 2005 - May 2005... I didn't have the energy to even think about it. Those were some bad months :(
