a positive vent.. looking forward to 2006 LifeisBetter: My 2005-
I started the year with so much promise and positive outlook on my newly single life. I was anxious to continue growing and experiencing everything I could in life.
As I think back over the past 12 months, there is little joy that I can find. Really the only joy is that my family is safe, happy and healthy. This has been a year of personal growth and I have had to overcome enormous obstacles that I never thought I would ever face. Does it make me stronger? I don’t know about that. Emotional pain has a tendency to linger on for a long time and some scars are just too painful to heal. I have regrets from this past year – definitely one major decision I made. I have to live with that.
Most people say I am “too nice”. Is that a character flaw? I refuse to change who I am, but in being too nice to people, I have gotten hurt. But I have also grown a backbone this year and I am learning to stand up for myself and to not tolerate certain things from people. As with every new year, people tend to decide what their focus will be for the upcoming year. Resolutions are usually made – and most broken by February. As I think about my direction and focus for 2006 there is really only one thing I can think of – to work through the emotional pains of 2005 and create a solid life for myself where there will be no room for sorrows and pains like I experienced in 2005. Continue to keep my family ties strong, nurture & grow my religious and spiritual beliefs, put more of an effort into building the kind of life I always wanted when I was a little girl. Do not deviate from who I am and do not let anyone make me feel like my dreams and goals are worthless.
So here are my guidelines for 2006, based off lessons learned this year:
1) Trust my initial reactions to things, if I feel a relationship or person is counter-productive to my personal growth or lifestyle, then end that relationship immediately. Don’t be afraid to set boundaries.
2) Tell the people I love that I love them everyday. Death is too unpredictable to assume there is always tomorrow.
3) Make personal decision based off my thoughts only – to not let others who think they know what is best for me make decisions for me.
4) Make sure I am happy with myself and if not, make changes to make ME happy, not someone else.
5) Continue to work on my personal goals and dreams. Don’t waste another precious year.
6) A job pays the bills, it's what you do outside the 9-5 that makes you who you are.
Re: a positive vent.. looking forward to 2006 cc: Nice to have some positive hope ;D
Merry Christamas and Happy New Years
Re: a positive vent.. looking forward to 2006 ohill: LifeIsBetter,
Extremely well put. I have been working on many of the same things that you mentioned (setting boundaries, not allowing my "being too nice" to hurt be, trusting my gut, realizing that my job doesn't define me).
Thanks for your post and for the encouragement it brings. Here's to a great 2006!
-Asa
