Re: back because I hate him at the moment! manda: PG sweety, you are a really strong woman. You are. you have been through some tough times and you are still hanging in there. Be proud of yourself.
Right now, you don't have much in your life to hang onto...or enjoy. No one is taking care of you and you are as close to a breaking point as anyone could be. I think, and of course what do I know, but I think that you need a little minivacation from all of it. You are living for everyone else and you can't even give yourself a minute's thought. I know that is probably not possible for you but maybe if you just know that you DESERVE to have some care--and I'm telling you that you do deserve it--maybe you will find a way to do some small things to make yourself happy. I hope for you, that you have some time alone doing something just for you. Take GOOD care of yourself. The future will be better...maybe not immediately, but eventually.
Sending you lots of hugs!
Re: back because I hate him at the moment! PiscesGoddess: ahhh what an esteemed group of women you are..I am honored to have all of your wisdom and kind words..I mean that more than you all know! I dont know what to say..each and every one of you were right in your own way..and touched on almost every point of what is going on right now.
As BB said as the mama I dont want to let go of my cub..even though I know it is best..Emma seems to be okay with it..so I would suppose that is the most important part.
Thank you all for saying I am strong..I dont feel it right now..and no Im not sending her away to save the marriage..because its becoming clearer and clearer that is not possible.
I just read an email he sent his brother (bad I know!) that said he and I were not going to be much longer..that things were bad even before emma came along..and its all true..but it still hurts to see it..
He's gone all the time..he never says I love you anymore..and I even apologized after the fight this whole thread was about..but..I cant fight the truth anymore than he can I suppose... :'(
So..I suppose its time to pull the bootstraps up once again and forage my way through this dark and stormy woods..because regardless..it still hurts. I dont know how I can pretend through Christmas..but ..I guess I have to for the kids..then emma goes to her grandmothers on Monday..and then ..I dont know...
anyway.thank you to everybody..and a special thanks to Cowboy for the wonderful PM..I will get back to you as soon as I can. :-*
Merry Christmas everybody-
Pisces
Re: back because I hate him at the moment! jen: pg~
I am so sorry. I imagine that there haven't been any easy answers for you, and that probably no choice was going to feel completely right. I am glad that you and your son are both okay. Maybe your daughter going to your ex-mil, maybe that is a part of the help that she needs. I hope so.
Just remember you are a survivor, a strong woman, and you will do whatever you have to...for yourself and for both your son and your daughter.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
mtmo
