Re: Its so hard with the holidays! BarbJo: I have to do wrapping tonight. I keep putting it off. I thought I didn't want him back. I guess I am just lonely. I talked to him today and all we both did was cry. But he was with her. Here I am trying to keep everything normal for the kids and he is out with her. It's killing me. I want to have a happy holiday but I don't think it's going to happen. I dread how I will feel xmas morning and he isn't here. How do I handle that. All the hurt he has put apon me and I still miss him. Why? I love him with all my heart and wish he would just come home. But he is not going to. Oh lord help me through this pain. I just want happiness in my life. When will it come. :'(
Re: Its so hard with the holidays! kev: Hi Barb Jo,
i am new here, just today actually, but i feel your pain so much.
Let me tell you this. you have kids who need you so much. You have you, who you need so much. don't dwell on who your "ex" used to be or what he is doing now. something is going on with him that he doesnt know who he is.
i have been in your shoes, i know the hurt that you are feeling. but, the first thing that you have to do is to just say HEY, i am not going to let this control me. I am not going to get up every day and feel this way!
the sun comes up and goes down every day. what you do during that time is totally up to you! You can choose to wallow in self pity ( i did for a while it is only natural), or you can choose to not let it get you down!
Pick the don't let it get you down option. Life is going to go on, dear. don't be a slave to what your ex did, be a slave to what you can do.
You are going to be fine.
