Tick-tock Tick-tock Dio: So I'm sitting here waiting. I sent a note and 2 doz roses to my wife at work today. I am trying to open a communication channel and haven't recieved any kind of response yet.
So I am waiting and waiting and waiting and wondering if I offended her or if she just threw it all out without even reading the note, or if she DID read it and is going to call me... I just don't know....
So I am waiting waiting waiting... I think I'm going to go to bed, soon. This is too stressful.
I am so anxious for a response, even a negative one will be better than nothing.
She's only been gone for a week, damnit. She can't ignore me. :-[
I guess I'll just keep waiting....
Re: Tick-tock Tick-tock ChiefWiggum: Dio,
Do not prepare yourself for a response. You probably won't get one. I know the anxiety is a killer. I took Niquil to "force" me to sleep at night. Do not stay up waiting for her. Turn off your friggin phone, and remove the battery, and throw the battery behind the bed. The anxiety is by far the worst part of it... and if I could do it all over again I would have cancelled my phone and internet connection. If she wants to get ahold of you she will find a way.
Good luck,
CW
Re: Tick-tock Tick-tock Dio: I suppose I agree, but I made the first step. The initial contact. I was kinda hoping to come home to a message or something. I guess it doesn't matter. I just don't want to give up so soon. I need her to read the letter I wrote and get a response. After I get a sincere response to my letter, if she still wants nothing to do with me, I'll go away and ....well probably never bother her again.
I just have no way to get the letter to her and if she tossed the flowers, she will probably do the same with the letter (that took me 3 days to write I might add). If I get a response to the flowers, and she still won't talk about our relationship, I will give her the letter.
At least then I will get to move on knowing I tried. It still hasn't REALLY hit me that she's gone. It just feels like she's gone on a trip or something and will be back any day. I need something definative from her to know if it is really over or not.
I hope not. I know I ignored her and all, but I was making efforts, even if I didn't understand the problem at the time.
Does any of this make sense? I'm not even in the mood to go back over my post to make sure I'm not talking in circles...... :'(
Re: Tick-tock Tick-tock ChiefWiggum: Give her the letter. Give her the flowers. Just don't stay up waiting for a response. You can read the response tomorrow... or the next day.
Re: Tick-tock Tick-tock Dio: You ask a difficult thing, my Niquel-junky friend. Sleep seems to be the biggest thing that is out of control for me right now. I made myself eat after 3 days. I included it in my new schedule. But sleep escapes me. I don't even bother to go to bed until I'm sure I will just pass out when I get there.
I dunno quite what to do about that. I have managed to not let my work suffer because of it, but how much longer can I last I wonder.
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