Re: never cry... cc: Lol yup, just about. Sorry I couldn't be more of a help. :-\
Re: never cry... Dio: Thasokay! :D
I left her a message. It's a beautiful night tonight in Houston. I wished her a merry xmas and asked her to talk to me.
I know this breaks the "no contact rule" and all, but hey, it's Christmas... she HAS to call me right? ;)
I am hoping she will call, so I can meet her somewhere, but I'm trying not to dwell on it too much.
Re: never cry... cc: Lol well hey...no risk, no reward right? :P
Re: never cry... Dio: Damn straight.
I think she came by today. I am not sure because I was in the back of the house, taking a shower and cleaning up, but a pack of her gum was laying on the ground outside. I might have never noticed it before, but I think it rained like 3 times since she left..... and it looked almost new. what's that about? I could be WAY wrong here, but I would hate to call her now and find out I was wrong... lol.
Re: never cry... nic1025: In my little bit of experience in this situation, the tears will come. It will one day, one random moment hit you out of know where. Maybe it will be a song, maybe it will be her scent, but it will hit you and when it does you will be crippled over in tears that hurt so badly your stomach can't offer anything but dry heaving. The shock and numbness will wear off and in my situation it was a song that set it off. I was in the middle of an intersection when this song came over the radio and it was all I could do to get my car to the side of the road. I literally felt as if I had been pulled from all edge of reason and out of my own body and someone had to come and get me.
I only wish I knew what to say. I'm still there. The numbness has worn off and I'm left in this barren, sour place that leaves me in my night gown for days at a time only leaving to go to work and even then I feel like a zombie. Be as productive as you can now because when it happens you'll need to be as focused as possible.
:'(
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