the calm after the storm before the storm again??? mikelr11: today i wrote a 6 page letter to my soon to be ex telling her how much i love her and how much i want her to stay. those of you who read my earlier posts know the whole story, but to recap, i gave her a great life monetarily speaking, i was always faithful, and in my eyes i really dont think i ever did anything that wrong. i called my mother today and she told me how much happier i will be without the wife, and how stupid she was for not realizing how good she had it. amazingly, after crying nonstop for 3 days, i feel great now. in fact, if she begged me to stay at this point, i would say no. as i was sitting and crying in self pity all i kept thinking was that i must have been a really bad husband to make her cheat and want to leave me. after talking to my mother (by the way i am 33), i feel so much better. the tears have stopped, and i look forward to the rest of my life without her. it is amazing how i went from almost suicidal to happiness in only a few hours. is this just a stage and will the sadness return??? I ALWAYS APPRECIATE RESPONSES!! i dont know what i would have done without this site, and i intend to send donation in.
Re: the calm after the storm before the storm again??? flyaway: Isn't it amazing that no matter how old we are, our moms still have the power to make us feel better? (Unfortunately, the opposite is also commonly true ::) )
Mike....I think that it is cool that you're feeling better about things. I'm not going to burst your bubble by telling you that it won't last....b/c it may....
I remember at points in my process that I actually felt guilty for having a good day....like I thought that I should still be wallowing in the depths of despair, not feeling joy and contentment. But what I learned through that experience is this:
I need to take each day as it comes. I need to enjoy it, revel in my feelings of it, and accept it....because tomorrow may be different. hmmmmm, I think I may have struck on something here.
As I type, I am feeling this incredible sadness and loss (it being Christmas Eve, and all). However...today is just today.....and tomorrow will be different.
So my advice to you would be to laugh and rejoice today, mike.....because today is truly all any of us have, right? :)
Take care,
Fly
