Christmas Day nic1025: I've been in this cold, quiet apartment for days, alone. No human contact, no human interaction. I'm left with nothing but my tears, my pain and my regrets. It's hard to look in the mirror and face my own personal humiliation, let alone thinking about being cast away by my own family.
This was suppose to be my first year with my own family. My husband.
I can hear the rain and in its reflection I can only imagine how today is suppose to feel. Everyone that I care about is gathered around with there friends and family enjoying one another and celebrating life and love. I have no one. I'm 22 years old and I feel as if I've hit rock bottom.
I had no idea the holiday's would be so hard. I had no idea I could hate him so much. I had no idea that one soul could feel this alone. I just had no idea.
Re: Christmas Day husky: Get out of your apartment!! Go for a walk on your own, go to the cafe, go to the bookstore ... anything! Just don't stay in your apartment alone. That is one sure way of making yourself depress.
Re: Christmas Day JNA: Ditto nic1025...
If it is any consolation I have been where you are right now about a year ago I found myself in the same place you are today...
Nothing anyone can say will make it feel better...
I have not been on this board long but have read enough to see there are some pretty caring people here that provide a lot of help...
Post here and it may take your mind off from it for a time...Then look ahead to the future because there are better days ahead...
Stay Strong nic1025
JNA
Re: Christmas Day rebirth: nic1025...
If it makes you feel any better. I am exactly where you are today. I am taking the pain as it comes. JNA is right, I don’t believe there is anything we can do right now. If it makes a difference I am thinking of you and sending you good thoughts using the last drop of hope and optimism that is left in me. We will have a wonderful year!
