Christmas mourning.. Irony: so.. 6 years ago I sat in front of the tree and cried. Surrounded by family and friends I went through the motions of enjoying chirstmas.
Going through the motions.
Thast was my first christmas without my first wife in 25 years.
Brief recap.. she died in an auto accident 6 months prior to Christmas and left me with a quarter century o fmemories and a very sad 10 year old son.
Fast forward to this Christmas>>>>
STBXW is with her family in Georgia and I'm here in Florida with my sister and her family, sitting by the tree, surrounded by family and friends again.. going through the motions.
I took a long car ride this morning, going no particular place but around. I found myself screaming in the car and going back to making animal noises again (thought I was past that stage)
I picked up my cell phone and brought up the wife's cell number. I had a conversation with my stbxw and in that conversation she said she realized her leaving had been a huge mistake and wanted to come home.
(I never pressed "send")
I spoke to her and heard all the things I prayed she would say someday. I spoke to her and listened for ten minutes, the only response was dead air.
(I never pressed "send")
I know this too shall pass, and I know we all have different wishes about our ex's and stbx's, but for those of you who pray for the return of a wife or husband, my thoughts and prayers are with all of you this Christmas "mourning".
(D______: all I want for christmas is YOU!)
Re: Christmas mourning.. Dio: Christmas "mourning"!!!!!!!!!
I love it.
I should have come up with that one. ;)
I am completely alone right now and understand how you feel. I jump everytime a small pickup drives by (they all sound the same, JUST like my wife's truck).
Take care, man and make it a Happy Christmas.
You can do it. :)
