WHEN WILL IT GET BETTER? bbygrl: I thought I was going to be okay. I kept telling myself I am great...that this christmas was better then others ( only because I forced myself to socialize alot, so I was around people, but ultimately alone). But the truth is it is awful and when I feel this way I think its never going to end. I have woken up the last two days nauseated, my muscles are so spasmed I can barely move, I took painkillers this morning, I never take drugs. IT SUCKS!!! My stbxh had his new girlfriend at his parents last night, with my son. My inlaws after 12 yrs don't even acknowledge me anymore. Its only been six months since the break up.My stbxh is the first thing I had to deal with this morning, because he woke me up phoning for my son who was still sleeping. I know nobody can tell me when this will get better, but I can't help asking...WHEN WILL THIS GET BETTER??? AAaaahhhhhgggg!!! I can barely breathe...I can't seem to let it all go, when I know he ( with her) are happy and couldn't care less that I am not. I know I need to let it go to be happy, I just don't know how.Just venting...sorry :(
Re: WHEN WILL IT GET BETTER? smokin: you need to ask yourself, if its been this long, when do i want to get better?
do you want to constantly be in this pain? do you constantly want to hurt?
ill bet the answer will be soon, no, and no.....
being alone, vs being with someone who doesnt appreciate, care for, and love you for who you are is almost an endless battle.
i ended up chosing being alone, vs someone who didnt love me enough to stay with me. its depressing at times, but overall its great...
i think the biggest thing for all of us to over come is the fear of the unknown, and the fear of being alone.......
you can make it, and make yourself better. start by doing something for you.. keep posting. join premium. we chat nightly. it helps..
