sometimes it just hits me... Irony: Dearest D_____
Sometimes it just hits me that you're gone and are never coming home.
Sometimes I just care so much that my soul aches for you, the one who pledged her undying love on that Captiva Island beach at sunset on a full moon night those three short years ago...just you and me and the preacher, the Gulf of Mexico, and the porpoises and gulls as our witnesses.
Sometimes I just think of what we had and how we let it sift through our fingers like sand on that beach on that beautiful evening. The sadness of it all rips through my soul and I'm tortured by memories of our days of glory. The anguish of the loss of you and your love pierces my heart, even though you left me long before you walked out the door.
Sometimes I just ponder how absolutely romantic and tragic our whole story is... you.. me... our paths crossing but for this brief moment in time...
Sometimes it just hits me that I still don't know when you stopped loving me and why leaving was your only solution to your longing, whatever that might be..
Sometimes I just wonder if it will it be better for you some day on another beach at sunset on a full moon night?
Sometimes it just hits me that you just don't care any more as every fiber of my being cries out for your love and your touch.
Sometimes it just hits me that you have cut out my heart.
Sometimes I just find myself not caring at all and that scares me. Have I grown as insensitive as you?
Sometimes I just find myself hating you.
Sometimes I just find myself loving you so much my teeth ache.
Tonight I just find myself caring a lot.
So why am I afraid?
What am I afraid of?
You're gone.. I'm still breathing.
I must be alright.
Yesterday I felt ok..
Right now I miss you.
Tomorrow will be better again, but I can't think about that right now.
Sometimes it just hits me.
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