Update...haven't been here for awhile brandyrobin710: Well,
I don't know if any of you remember me but for those of you who do, I'd like to tell you where I am right now. My boyfriend is home. We started talking again just before Christmas. We took things slow but then couldn't stand it and he moved back in. To be perfectly honest, we've had our fights about the breakup and the things he did during the breakup. But on the other hand, once the fighting was done and the feelings were out we have found ourselves deeply in love again. It's a beautiful feeling. Don't peg me for a fool though. I know that I have offered him this second chance. There will be no third chance. The way I see it is this....if you love someone as much as I love him, then you have to do what you need to know to resolve things. If I had not given him this chance, I would never have known if things could have worked out and I don't want to live with that. I would rather live with knowing he can't make it work because he couldn't change. I think I can handle that so much more than not giving it a chance. We all come here to try to find some peace. I must admit that coming here did help for awhile and then it became terribly painful. I've given my fair share of advice and I'm not sure if I should have. We speculate on how the "leaver" is feeling. We speculate on what their actions mean. I now have answers as to why my X did the things he did while we were apart and you know what? It wasn't what I was thinking or what anyone was thinking. The truth is we will never know unless we look at our X and see the sincerity as they tell us "why." I'm lucky I have gotten that this time but I know that I am also taking a big risk of getting my heart broken again. Well, that's human. So many times I prayed at night for God to take away the hurt but now I'm thankful that I hurt that much. Do you want to know why? I'm thankful because it shows how much I can love someone. I thank God for that. It's what makes us special. So, for those of you who are hurting so terribly right now.....I know that some of you don't feel special, feel like you just want all that to go away, and you want to be "numb" but I am telling you right now.....The way you are feeling right now is what makes you a good person. It's what makes you special and I will pray that each of you find peace but never lose the heart that makes you hurt so much right now. Some people don't have the capability of loving like that and I'm so thankful that I do. Wish me luck, folks. I am going to give this love one more shot. If it works, then I will be happy for a lifetime because he truly is the "one" despite a lot of shortcomings and a lot of work he has to do on himself. He's willing to try and that's all I can ask for. I'm going into this with eyes wide open though. Some of you may think I'm a fool. I may be. The only thing I know is that I am in love with him and I've got to see just this one last time. I wish all of you the best. I have high hopes that all of you will find peace in your lives. I also ask for a little peace myself.......
Best Wishes,
Brandy
Re: Update...haven't been here for awhile cab1000: "so your telling me theres a chance!" ~ Floyd Christmas
Re: Update...haven't been here for awhile bleedingheart: Kudos to you Brandy. I really hope things work out for you. I myself am not sure if I can go that path again. I'm have difficulties trusting my STBX with my heart ever again.
Keep us posted if you can, I would like to know how things go please.
Thanks,
BH
Re: Update...haven't been here for awhile Reasons: I'm happy for you ... I hope everything works out for the best ... I don't know your story or anything, but you sould like a bright lady with a great heart; so I know nothing bad is going to come your way :)
