Sad... cc: I had looked at my Boyfriends blog today, and saw the older sister of my Ex-Bestfriends blog on it...so I clicked it out of boredom, and saw the last blog, which was about celebrating her Birthday that happened a few days ago...
She had mentioned on how "Let's get drunk all night! Oh, well, I guess I can't..."
I have the feeling she's pregnant...
at first I was happy for her, excited...
but now.....
I feel saddness....
After so long of being apart of their life ((My ex-bestfriends and her sisters))
I loved them so much, they were my second family...
and now I can't share in their joy....
and it kills me....
I don't know why....
but it does....
My Boyfriend is back with me.....
but the life I had once mourned for....
is still dead.........
how long can a person grieve
because of a friend
turning her back on you....??
Re: Sad... brokenbaby: Grieve as long as you need to. There is no time limit. The loss of a friend is very painful.
(hugs)
Re: Sad... alonewith2: I still miss my group of friends, too. When I found out my STBX cheated on me, they sided with me of course, but over the years we all drifted apart.
They were all his friends in the beginning, and we used to joke that I won them in the settlement. But now they are gone. I don't miss my STBX, but I do miss the group of friends we were a part of. Many of them moved away, so I couldn't have them back even if I wanted.
But every Friday night, I remember our nights out playing darts and generally just taking over the bar. Every Saturday night, I remember the guys playing on stage, while us chicks danced and hung out. It sucks now that I don't have anyone to go to the bar with. I miss those days.
My STBX used to get really depressed when he thought about all that he lost when he screwed up. (his friends mostly, not me). I told him that taking away those weekends from me ended up hurting me more than him cheating.
Re: Sad... cc: ((Hugs back))
It's not fair....I didn't do anything...I didn't....
I never betrayed her...
I was always there for her...
why do I have to be the one crying...
why did I have to have people who were so loved by me leave....
it's not fair....
why can't she believe me....
Re: Sad... JNA: [quote author=cc link=topic=24502.msg230149#msg230149 date=1138061040">
((Hugs back))
It's not fair....I didn't do anything...I didn't....
I never betrayed her...
I was always there for her...
it's not fair....
why can't she believe me....
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I have a lot to add to this and can tell you a nice little game that was played on me CC...
I will leave it for you in IM tomorrow if ya want
I didn't betray...hurt or do anything to a person one time either and lost all my trust in people and about 50+ friends...
All on the whims of what a crazy woman stated
She has since recanted it but the damage was done...
Best thing to do is not to read there until you can heal a little. When I read some things it was like ripping my heart out everytime knowing I could do nothing about it...
Now I "laugh" and "joke" about it with friends...It is the major inside joke with us
When the fury wears off they will only have guilt
You will have none because in your heart you know you did nothing wrong
Take solace in that...
JNA
True colors always shine through...
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