For Everyone brokenbaby: Who has listened to me ramble, pity, play the victim and sulk. For everyone who has listened to me be angry, depressed and plain old stupid. THANK YOU FROM MY SOUL.
This is undoubtedly the most difficult time I have ever been through. My story...I met my stbxh after high school. We dated for five years. Were married for six. He would pick me up by the neck, throw me around, hit me, control me anything he could. I still thought things were good. His self esteem was so low, he took mine. I became very much co-dependent on him. He would always talk me out of working, and I think now it was because he was afraid I would get strong and independent and leave. This is the third time he has left. The second I filed for divorce. Yes I kept taking him back. My own mistakes. He left with the income, the automobile and I have all of the debts. The house, the pets and everything that goes along with it. He has barely spoken to me since he left. Why did he leave? We got in an argument and I was pissed and finally just got angry and said things. Sometimes you say things you dont mean when you are angry. He did it to me all the time. Yelled until I cried and then made fun of me for crying and then yelled some more. He is gone now and I have no identity. None. I became him. His friends his past times him everything. And he liked his material things so when there was no money things were really bad. And I still miss the shit out of him. Can't figure that one out. Over the course of all of this I became controlling and untrusting. He would use drugs behind my back. Talk nasty about me to anyone he could. Lie all the time. And god knows what else. I am not without fault. I became condescending and demeaning. I was so hurt and lonely I wanted him to hurt to. It was just a bad scene all together. I know the parts I played.
Anyway. Thank you all for your support and kind words. I cannot say how much you help me and make me laugh and god knows I need it. However, I am leaving Ojar. I got bombarded in chat tonight. I can take criticism. I have to in my line of work. But this was just not right.
I cant name you all, but thank you. Thank you.
BB-
Ps. I still say the chippendales kicked GS, Smiley and PQ's butts! And for the record. Red Sox rule!
Love ya'll. Stay strong. You all are, so much more then you know. You give so much and dont even know.
Re: For Everyone Peaceandquiet: Wait one damn minute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Re: For Everyone genesplicer: [quote author=Peaceandquiet link=topic=24567.msg231062#msg231062 date=1138162586">
Wait one damn minute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Yea, what he said!
Re: For Everyone flyaway: What happened, bb? Was I there? I missed it. Oh gosh...don't do go away....we need ya girl! :-\
Re: For Everyone JNA: [quote author=brokenbaby link=topic=24567.msg231061#msg231061 date=1138162347">
Who has listened to me ramble, pity, play the victim and sulk. For everyone who has listened to me be angry, depressed and plain old stupid. THANK YOU FROM MY SOUL.
This is undoubtedly the most difficult time I have ever been through. My story...I met my stbxh after high school. We dated for five years. Were married for six. He would pick me up by the neck, throw me around, hit me, control me anything he could. I still thought things were good. His self esteem was so low, he took mine. I became very much co-dependent on him. He would always talk me out of working, and I think now it was because he was afraid I would get strong and independent and leave. This is the third time he has left. The second I filed for divorce. Yes I kept taking him back. My own mistakes. He left with the income, the automobile and I have all of the debts. The house, the pets and everything that goes along with it. He has barely spoken to me since he left. Why did he leave? We got in an argument and I was pissed and finally just got angry and said things. Sometimes you say things you dont mean when you are angry. He did it to me all the time. Yelled until I cried and then made fun of me for crying and then yelled some more. He is gone now and I have no identity. None. I became him. His friends his past times him everything. And he liked his material things so when there was no money things were really bad. And I still miss the shit out of him. Can't figure that one out. Over the course of all of this I became controlling and untrusting. He would use drugs behind my back. Talk nasty about me to anyone he could. Lie all the time. And god knows what else. I am not without fault. I became condescending and demeaning. I was so hurt and lonely I wanted him to hurt to. It was just a bad scene all together. I know the parts I played.
Anyway. Thank you all for your support and kind words. I cannot say how much you help me and make me laugh and god knows I need it. However, I am leaving Ojar. I got bombarded in chat tonight. I can take criticism. I have to in my line of work. But this was just not right.
I cant name you all, but thank you. Thank you.
BB-
Ps. I still say the chippendales kicked GS, Smiley and PQ's butts! And for the record. Red Sox rule!
Love ya'll. Stay strong. You all are, so much more then you know. You give so much and dont even know.
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Girl I'm so tired tonight by waiting for "you" to come back in chat that I cannot respond now but will tomorrow...
I promise...
You stay here with us ok and we will all get through it just fine
We will all be just fine...
He may have let you down
We won't
Stay Strong
JNA
Someone told me one time when I was going though the hurt you are...
Just Rock Up...Be A Man...
I told him to "Kiss" my Ass
Because they don't know now do they
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