Re: i miss him imisshim: Thanks you guys...
I think i'm doing better everyday..
I think the hardest part is how can you spend 11 years with someone and just be thrown out like garbage... that hurts...
You ask yourself... what did i do ... how could i have been differently.... how could i have shown him...
I mean its crazy all the things you think you could have done differently when you dont have the change to actually do them again ...
There's a billboard on the way to see my best friend... its in front of this big hill and it says...
~ Give me all your concerns... i'll be up anyway. Love God~
I'm a givin it... lol
thats all i can do
its out of my hands...
But i do love him.. he is a good person... this person he is being now is not him... he's not cold and he's not uncaring... he knows he's being weird to.. just wish i could reach him... its funny how i should be the ONE person in the world who should be able to reach him.. and i cant....
its an awful feeling looking into the eyes of someone that you love so much and seeing someone you hate...
Re: i miss him 21218: he is that person. when the going gets tough, when the chips are down, when he gets stressed out ... that's who he is. you're going through the same stuff he is, but you're not acting like he is. don't beat yourself up and don't put him on a pedastal.
it's like back in WWII in POW camps ... some people would betray their fellow camp-mates for nothing, for a scrap of food or something like that. others would maintain their dignity and honor no matter what. it shows their true character.
The Army has 7 core values ... how does he match up, how do you match up? loyalty ... duty (fulfilling your obligations) ... respect ... selfless service ... honor ... integrity ... personal courage. you've been loyal, you've met your obligations, treated him with respect ... been selfless, honest, and courageous. "honor" is defined as living up to ALL of the values. he hasn't, he is without honor.
do not feel sad for what's happened. feel sad that he can't be a bigger person, that you wasted as much time with him as you did ... be happy for the good times and the knowledge that you've gained ... move on.
Re: i miss him imisshim: :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
i'm so so sorry honey.....
God.... i hate this.... i know this would be so much harder if our kids had made it.... i'm so sorry....
*sending prayers your way*
Re: i miss him is there a chance??: tysm i hope he comes back around :-\
