dear miss peach... Irony: dear miss peach:
As of this past weekend, it has been three months since you walked out of my life.
If anyone had asked me during that first two and a half months if I wanted to live, I'd have told them honestly i didn't give a rat's rear end.. that if it weren't for my son.. I'd a been a gonner.
WOW how time changes things.
I found a really great bunch of people to help me through what was argueably one of the toughest times in my life.
They have all been through what you put me through in one form or another and they have all known hurt like they never thought they could hurt, all at the hands of someone who supposedly loved and cherished them.
They've even taught me how to laugh again.. there are some very funny people in that bunch!
They're mostly young and very saavy about life for their tender years... I truly admire them fo rhteir courage in the face of such life tragedies.
Their stories are pretty much the same.. love found.. love lost. in one way or another, whether it be by a cheating or abusive or drug/alcohol spouse or by someone like you who just decided that they didn't want to be married anymore.. that it was too much trouble and that they were just too selfish to fight for their marriages and the ones they no longer were 'in love' with.
We all got the same crappy and unoriginal lines:
"I love you but I'm not "in love" with you..."
I love you but I can't live with you."
It all adds up to the same damned thing..
a lazy, self-centered spouse who didn't give a damn that he or she had promised never to leave.. well..
leaving.
And thanks for telling me lst week that your only commitment was to yourself... you could have saved us both a lot of time and hreartach if you'd have told me that before we got married and i totally changed my life to follow the dreams we both wanted to share.
Well my new friends are here for me.. that's more than I can say for you.
Do I still love you?
YES!
Am I still 'in love' with you?
Not for avery long time.
So I guess by your 'standards' (if you can call them that) I ought ot just forget about you and not care a rat's rear end about you..
tit for tat
Dammit, a piece of my heart went out the door when you left, and I want it back!
The sooner the better.
regards.
The dog you kick.
(A heartfelt 'thank you' to all of you on oJar that have helped me through all this crap!
And thanks Michael for giving us this forum)
Re: dear miss peach... yella: Wow, Irony. That was quite a letter, and I can see that you're really working through your feelings.
I'm glad that we're here to help you, and from my point, make you laugh.
Kudos to you for posting and working this out!
You're getting better each and every day, and I promise, I'll try to get another pic of PQ with his butt in the fireplace! Ya know, since you enjoyed it so much! ;)
To many happy days! *raises glass*
Re: dear miss peach... Irony:
Thanks smiley..
yeah things are a lot better than they were up until recently..
I feel I've got the 'old' me back.. funny.. ambitious.. loveable.. driven.. outgoing...creative.. all the stuff I buried during this marriage.
I miss her but I've got me back..
damn I miss her.. no.. I miss the idea of her it think.
whatever.
thanks again
Re: dear miss peach... yella: You miss the idea of her, or who she was when you first got together, but that will soon change. It really does take time, but it also takes determination and drive as well. Both of which you have!
Oh, and by the way... it's WHATEVA! ;)
Re: dear miss peach... Irony:
Hey I'm a Southerner now!!
We don't cotton to that yankee talk 'round these parts!
Seriously, I do still hold a little hope in my heart that she will come around eventually.. in the meantime i'm going out and having fun and accomplishing things and its making he crazy that I'm not sitting home pining away for her.
I love it.
