Re: He's moved on;I'm left in a million little pieces brokenbaby: Something that I did that may help you with the days you really want him back.
I made two lists. One of the good things I remember and one of the bad. Honest lists. And the good was half a page long, the bad six pages. I read these when I am really down to remind myself of why I am better off without this unhealthy relationship. For me it is just a reality check and a reminder to take care of me!
Just some thoughts.
Re: He's moved on;I'm left in a million little pieces wendieann: [quote author=sosad05 link=topic=25016.msg236403#msg236403 date=1138923551">
He found a rich no kids, never been married woman whom he's moved in with. While I'm supporting the children on my own income (he's behind in child support), he's driving a brand new car and living in a fancy house. I am devastated. I wasnt supposed to be a divorced person! We were soul mates. Some days I miss him so much. It hurts sooo bad. Like a knife is constantlly cutting into me. I feel like I just go through "existence" every day.
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I can also relate to you. My STBXH moved in with OW immediately, she has no kids, etc. >:( He has all the freedom while I am strapped down with a 6 wk old and a 1.5 yr old...(at the time) He can go and party, wine and dine, while, my days consist of changing diapers, and laundry! >:( It sure doesn't seem fair.
My STBXH also hasn't given me a dime for help either.
I never wanted to be a divorcee... :'( I loved him too! You will go through so many emotions, the worst being the "what if's", and "if only"... :-\
I also hold dear that their time will come.
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Somedays are good. But somedays I feel like I would give anything to have him back. Thankyou!!
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During those moments of despair we just have to live a moment at a time... and tomorrow will be a different day. ;)
Good luck to you and welcome here! :)
Re: He's moved on;I'm left in a million little pieces sosad05: Thankyou wendieann...sometimes I think how easy it was for him to move on. But ofcourse it would be easy when suddenly you dont have the responsibilities of two small children. I'm sure its very easy to keep a sparkly clean house too. In addition, I refuse to jump into another relationship just to "have someone". I have to carefully consider every decision I make and how it impacts these two small children. He doesnt have to worry about any of those things.
Re: He's moved on;I'm left in a million little pieces wendieann: sosad05: My house will never be sparkly clean!! LOL My STBXH hated that! ::)
I believe that with no kids it would be a very lonely life... :P No amount of partying, etc could replace seeing your children smile and hearing them laugh.... ;)
The OW doesn't have a clue how lucky we are! :P We have the children.. As far as I am concerned she can have my STBXH.. (yes, somedays I want him back...) ??? Since he decided to put the OW about his children and marriage, what kind of love did he really have for us!???? >:(
I dragged my teens into this marriage thinking I did the right thing... giving them a "father figure"... :'( all I did was make things worse. Now they know what they don't have... that is a father that truly loves them... :'(
As for our babies, we both will protect them and love them. ;)
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He entertained 19 year old girls [/quote">
My STBXH entertained 19 friends all the time. ::) I sure felt stupid sitting there listening to the 19 yrs... ::) I knew then it was weird for him to have such young friends! Of course he was older and they "all" looked up to him... :P The girls just loved him and were v.flirty with him... he of course returned the flirting.. .and I would just walk away...GAGAGAGGA I could never keep up to the 19 yr olds... in looks...
Where was my head! I know my body was pregnant... :(
He would get made because I didn't DO anything. Gee... I was a mother at home with kids... what did he want me to do? ???
It hurts... I loved my STBXH...still do... just remember we didn't do anything wrong... :( it is sad that our children will suffer because of them... so we have to do whatever it takes to make our children's lives better...for them and for US!!!
Re: He's moved on;I'm left in a million little pieces ruby: my gift to you :)
As i walk along my path in life i gaze at the wonder that is to be found there. What a strange world it is that i have been placed in, for i am but a small entity trying to find my way. What is it i expect to recieve in this life, love, happiness, worldly possessions? Deep inside i know it to be much more. It is nothing less than a true awakening of my soul. As i look around me at all the world has to offer, I cannot help but feel a sense of detachment, for my path is leading me away from my present life into something that very few will possess. For while the world is content to sit within its coccoon, i am destined to become a butterfly
