I'm Sorry... sosad05: Dear You-I am sorry for the ugly way things ended. I should have been stronger and more mature. I was weak. I wasnt thinking clearly. I knew our relationship was destructive and needed to come to an end but I didnt know how. If there was anything I could do to take away that horrible day, I would. You didnt deserve the way it ended. I am sorry from deep within my soul.
This is how I wish it would have ended. I would have started by giving you a hug. I would have told you that a part of me will always love you. I would have told you I was 50% at fault as were you. I enabled you to become a monster with spending money. You enabled me to become a drunk. We were both at fault. I would have told you I want you fully involved with the children but we just cant be together as a couple anymore...we're killing each other. We just got married to young. I came from a strict catholic family and you were my escape. However, now we're grown up and its time to move on.
Were back on cordial speaking terms. Its hard seeing you with her. Now that were cordial I sometimes wonder, why was there ever a problem. But, I have to recall the past. Maybe our divorce was needed in order for us to be the best parents we could be for our two little angels. I hope you find happiness. If she is what makes you happy, then thats good. I pray for myself to someday find someone that makes me happy.
I will love you forever,
B
Re: I'm Sorry... JNA: Things never end the way we want them because no one can ever prepare for the end of anything ok...
Take solace in the fact you did the best you could
You will find love in full and in kind just give it time...
Most things have a way of working themselves out for the "best" in the long run
Stay Strong
JNA
