Having a rough day today doseyclwn: I just don't get it. I really don't get how someone can be all like "I love you, I want to work it out" one minute and then like an hour later be like "I want a divorce". I'm just having a real hard time with it today. I did okay the last few days, but today is rough. I feel alternately like a)begging her to come back, b)going out and attempting to get laid, and c)curling up in a ball and sobbing. A does not work. I did that the first two weeks. Not only does she not wanna hear it, but she will curse at me and it just makes me look/feel pathetic. B would be really stupid. I know that would only make me feel worse, because it wouldn't be sex I'd be looking for. C I can't do because I have to raise my 2 boys. I really hate this. She's trying to do it informally, and that's just too uncomfortable for me, and I believe it's wearing on the children (though I may be emotionally involved, I'm getting the opinion of my therapist on that). This is just really hard. I feel betrayed. I feel robbed. I gave up my career to take care of our children, and this is how I'm repayed. Can you tell I"m upset?
Re: Having a rough day today wendieann: [quote author=doseyclwn link=topic=25043.msg236821#msg236821 date=1138983922">
This is just really hard. I feel betrayed. I feel robbed. I gave up my career to take care of our children, and this is how I'm repayed. Can you tell I"m upset?
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Yes, I can tell your upset. ;) I feel robbed too. I receive a pension, and I supported him while he went back to college to better himself while I stayed home and raised his son from a previous marriage! :( THEN, he runs off with OW, with a great job, doesn't pay me a dime, leaves me at home with 4 kids now... Yep... I was robbed out of my life for 5 years. I dedicated my life for our family. I did love it, but was taken for granted... >:(
The worst is I dragged my 2 teens into this and they have lost the only "father" figure they have known! :-\
How can they LOVE you one minute? For me, we just got back from holidays, and 2 wks later... :( Yes, I kicked him out, I was hoping it would be a wake up call that our marriage was in serious trouble...but he left v.willing. I have big regrets on that one... ???
Vent my dear, we are here to listen to you! ;)
Re: Having a rough day today Jel27: I guess I can be grateful that I did not give up anything in my life for him. My plan was to move to TAsmania which is 1,000 miles away from all my family and friends to be with him. I would have sacrafice everything for this idiot and imagine if he'd dumped after I'd moved there. So I am grateful for that.
But, The thing is, I still gave two and half years of my life to making this long distance relationship work and this is what I get. Two weeks before he dropped his bomb, he was telling me he loved me, then he's saying as he's leaving he doesn't know if he loves me. How can he not know, you know if you love someone. All he said was he is not happy. Couldn't something like that be worked out. There is such a thing called commitment, and he told me he was committed, that was obviously a lie.
I just don't get it, and I don't think I ever will.
