Re: I am BACK Loshyra: ;D ;D
It is good to be back I guess. LOL! I still have my days that I have a hard time coping.....like last night. ;) But I am trying my hardest to just worry about me, and nobody else....
Re: I am BACK Loshyra: hmmmmmm......OK......so since I am being asked by a million and a half people what happened...... Here you GO....Love it, hate it.....I really don't care. I have been through HELL and back over the last few weeks.....so nothing could really PISS me off, or make me mad at this point...
A few weeks ago, I was at work and working on a computer and passed out, I woke up to the computer on my hand on the floor, and me looking up into one of our sales reps eyes, him asking if I was ok, and me not knowing where I was. I remember going to work, going to lunch with Tami and then nothing until about 10ish that night. Apparently the guy that I thought was sooooo awesome decided sometime in that time frame to come over to my house and break up with me because "I have to much drama in my life" or that is what Tami is telling me that I told her that night. I have little memory of that day at all. I went to my dr the next day and he told me that I have a "panic disorder" and that I needed to "de-stress" my life, meaning, take the weekend off from everything, and try to relax. He also informed me that I may want to delete my account on OJAR and take a little bit of a break from that.. I hardly remember the weekend, I know that my mom took the kids the night that this happened, that my ex took them the next night, and that my mom was at my house when the girls came back. I remember her getting me out of bed to go to breakfast on Sunday, but only after taking a MAJOR dose of Larazapam (sp??). I guess that I slept most of the weekend. I am slowly feeling like myself again. Had it not been for Crushed, my mom, my 1st ex husband, and Mugged By Fluffy....I probably would not be typing this right now. My work has been awesome with helping me through this, my supervisor apparently has the same condition and has had this kind of thing happen to him a lot. I have lost about 15 lbs through this all. I am starting to eat again, but am sicker then a dog when I do, because I didn't eat for so long.
Re: I am BACK Suddenly Single: I understand that but that is VERY stressful in and of itself to try to not stress out other people. The people that care about you are going to worry about you whether you want them to or not - it is better to have them help you than the stress of worrying about them.
I am BACK Loshyra: Yeah, I left for a while, but I am back. Before any of you all ask, I would really rather not go into the reasons for departing suddenly. Lets just say, I was forced (by my doctor) to take some time off from everything in my life, not just OJAR. Anyway, It is gooooood to be back...
Re: I am BACK bug: Welcome back hun!
