Re: Need a pep talk LostTeacher: seperated 15 months...and i still feel sick to my stomach when i see him.
i remember when i used to get butterflies, i used to get so excited when he would walk in a room. now....i just get anxious.
i don't know when it goes away. it might never. we just have to learn to deal with it better. i haven't quite figured that out yet. i am going to see him for a good couple of hours this weekend, and i am doing it purposely. going to a wedding that he is going to.
i am scared, and i have a feeling that no matter how hard i am going to try, i am going to get upset. but i have to face the fact that we are both moving on. we don't care about each other in the same way. i can't even pretend that it's ever going to get better. how can it, when the last time i talked to him was in september, and the last time we had a face-to-face talk was last april?? it's never going to be the same.
i won't say it gets better....but i will say it might get easier. that's the best i can do.
LT
