What I wish I could say.... Raven: Dear STBX,
I'm not stupid, or blind. I know that I am not completely blameless in regards to our marriage failing...BUT, I am not taking all this blame that you want to lay on me.
Why HER? Why, of all the people on the planet that you could have chosen, did you have to choose this particular woman? She was my BEST friend, for 12 years! I realize that we (she and I) have not spoken for years now, but that just adds to it. You KNEW that I was trying to remove this womans toxicity from my life. You USED TO agree with me about how toxic she is.
Rose colored glasses are a dangerous thing.
She cheated on EVERY man she has EVER been with. Yet you say she is different..That she has changed...How delusional ARE you? She is MARRIED. It doesn't matter that they are divorcing. She is MARRIED, and she has a child, yet she VOLUNTARILY, and PURPOSEFULLY got involved with you, a MARRIED man, with a wife that LOVED you, and was devoted to our marriage, and with a child. THIS is standard issue for her! Can't you see that you are NOTHING more than what SHE sees as the right thing for HER at the moment? It has NOTHING to do with you. Its self gratification for her...Nothing more.Its how she has ALWAYS worked.
You say you are in love with her. I wish that you would realize that you are giving up your LIFE...your marriage, your CHILD, for this woman, who WILL NOT remain a part of your life for long. It breaks my heart. Truly.
I cannot even concieve of the possibility of this woman EVER having an influence over our son. I would sooner leave the state, than allow him to be under the roof with her, for even one night. And no, that is not emotional reaction speaking..Its rationale. She's attempted suicide twice in the past year alone...5 times( that I know of) in her entire life. She's TOTALLY unstable, mentally...and has NO moral fiber. If you want to play with her, fine...I can't stop you...but I do NOT want my son subjected to someone so TOXIC.
I don't want you back...Not ever. I deserve someone that is NOT going to look for greener grass. I deserve someone that takes care of themselves, and is as devoted to his family, as I am.
That is not, and will never be you. EVER.
Signed,
Raven
Re:What I wish I could say.... mv2: I am so sorry Raven. That's all I can say... It's terrible that someone can make such a terrible choice, and leave their wife and daughter for something do toxic.
You are 100% correcty that you are NOT to blame for this terrible choice of his, believe me!
