Re:When you Just Know in_search_of: Wow, it was one of those days, I went to the store (which I hate) and bought groceries...when I was checking out I realized I was SINGLE...I had microwave food, cat food, and nothing to actually cook. I almost cried right in the middle of walmart...that is all that I wanted to do...I bought junk...total junk...
I want to be married, I want to be together, I want to think about what someone else wants for dinner, what they would eat for breakfast, what we were going to have for lunch on Sat. All those things...I want to be part of a couple, I don't want to simply date, I want a relationship, I want to meet someone and feel that connection.
Re:When you Just Know Basset: Dear In_Search_Of,
I just want a man to love unconditionally for life. I hope my boyfriend wants to be that man. Hopefully, you would get someone soon.
Basset
Re:When you Just Know in_search_of: Thanks Basset!
That is what I want too, but I somedays really think I am not ready for that...Actually lately it has been most days that I think I am not ready for that!
Though I went out last night with a group of friends and had a great time...I really really did have a good time, talked to a very good looking guy without any presuppositions that it was going anywhere...and somehow he managed to say what I needed to hear..."if I didn't have a girl in CO, I would definitely be hitting on you" I just needed to hear that someone would be, not that he was, and I respect the fact that he has a girl somewhere else that he is that good too...good for him!
Re:When you Just Know in_search_of: [quote"> HA to everyone last night!
I went to a party at a professor's house, because we had bid on it for charity...I was excited about it when I bid on it, I was excited about it when I paid for it, but last night when it was time to go there was a comedian that I wanted to see at the school, and I was not so excited about going, but I went, and it ended up being an interesting evening.
We all did a little drinking, hun out...etc. It was me, Kelly, Dionna, Alex, Chris, Dustin, and Tanya. Odd, but interesting crowd. Well, when we got there, the professor had some other friends around, and a few other random folks showed up. We all just kinda hung around and drank, and then decided to hot tub it. (One should only put so many people in a small hot tub...) For once I was the sober one. I was grabbing drinks, and cleaning up after people, and standing around talking etc. Early in the eveing we had been sitting on the porch and Dionna, and Kelly and Tanya, all of the sudden started checking out this guy who was there with some friends of the professor and his wife. He was their son. Well, by the end of the evening, we were all out by the hot tub...and the professor drops a glass, and hot boy and I had been standing around talking and since we were more sober than the professor, we take the flashlight and broom and dustpan and clean up because we are not looking for anyone to get cut, and we are as safe as anyone. I just stood around and talked to him, and visited for a while, and it was great we were just joking around and having a good time. And all of the sudden he mentions the fact that "if I didn't have a girl back in CO I would totally be hitting on you." And you know what that was plenty. I admired the fact that he was not hitting on me despite the fact that he had a girl, and the fact that he just said it and we were cool...nice to know that he would have been...I think that is really what I need right now, not someone actually to hit on me, but just to know that they would. Plus I love the fact that usually if Dionna is around there is a plethora of guys hitting on her, and not really on anyone else. And the one guy that everyone was wondering about was talking to ME! When we were all piling in the car to go home, I said that it was nice to meet him and went to get in the car and he gave me a hug, don't believe I won't hear about that in the morning...Sometimes its fun to be me!
Though it was funny that I was the sober (I should say soberest) one, and was just hanging out...Not that I didn't have everychance to get drunker then hell, I just didn't do it. I am so proud of me (every step is a good one) that is a step in the direction of becoming a normal human again, and I need to work on that...
I also sent poor Dustin into a state of shock I think, I made alex give me his number after he had passed out in the car, and wouldn't give up his keys. Dustin and I have a love hate kind of relationship, we love to hate on one another, we bicker and we fight and we make fun, and we get a long that way, we don't say nice things to one another. Just as a general rule. But like I said, he passed out in his car, and when we saw him leave I made alex give me his number, and so I called, left a message, and when he called back he was in shock that I had called, just to make sure that he had gotten home and because I was worried.
All round it was a pretty good night, even though I was worried that it was not going to be!
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Stolen from my other journal....
Re:When you Just Know Basset: Dear In_Search_Of,
It is good that you got that compliment from that man. I know that if my boyfriend and I don't work out, at least I know there are men out there that think I am attractive. When my husband dumped me and put an ad on ashleymadison.com, I felt that I was too fat to be loved. In addition, I thought that for some reason men don't want the type of love I want to give a man. But my boyfriend proved me wrong. Thus, I understand the importance of such compliments.
Basset
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