Re: I'll never stop, if you don't. Seeker: Ladies,
I am also a believer and I prayed this morning for some help. Well finding this post just answered my prayers. I am a single dad and I pray everyday for my family to be together again. I will wait until that day, no matter the cost, no matter how long.
I made mistakes as a husband. I am willing to admit them and make amends. If I stay close to God he stays close to me. He has carried me through a lot of tough times and I am sure there are more to come. I am no longer afraid. My child is a miracle that took years of prayer, so I know the power of the Lord.
I just wanted you all to know that there are others like you and I am praying for all of you.
Seeker
Re: I'll never stop, if you don't. yella: There's a lot that I've been praying for the past week or so, and I can tell you this it's been extremely difficult. It isn't easy when you lose your way for the hundredth time in 3 years, and it gets a little harder to pick myself back up with each fall I take, but I do it because I have to do it.
I'm a mom because I was blessed to be one, but I also understand the work that comes with it. It's not an easy job. It's not easy to have your world come crashing down and still carry your head high through it all. Sometimes it's impossible. Sometimes we fall. Whether it's at our own hands or the hands of others, it's still a fall. Mine was a big one. Like falling off the side of a mountain, but I'm slowly picking myself back up while trying not to let myself brush the issues under the rug, because it's easier to do.
That's why I began praying again, and now going to church. I've realized that I need more than what I was giving myself, and I remember as a kid, going to church with my great-grandparents, how peaceful things seemed when we came home from mass. I remember feeling at ease. I want to give that to my kids, and give it back to myself, and I won't let anything stand in my way of that. Not this time.
I've learned that I need to love myself more and not fight so much for others. I've learned that I need to fight for myself, and for my own protection and sanity. I have to live with myself, and I have to live with my soul, so I have to make the most of what God has already given me. If the good follows, perfect, but if not, I have to know that I can handle it. The only way to know is to trust one thing. The higher power.
