this is just me complaining, I plan on doing it here and often Lome: I hate your video games...it is 5:30 am and you are still playing....you played all of Saturday, so we still do not have the molding or any other construction done...Last night you told me we would do something special on Sunday....How?
I miss passion....This was my week off from school and I spent it on Ojar...no vacation, nothing done....Since you have come back in November you have not actually slept in our bed.....everynight that I am there by myself I become that much more numb....You say you love me and you will sleep with me when you get your head straight....
I miss sex...I miss when we would spend Sunday morning's watching anime and making love....long, passionate love ......when I would feel secure and just normal, hell I miss when I would have to tell you not now or I will be late for work.....
I hate that I will never be right again
Re: this is just me complaining, I plan on doing it here and often Lome: more complaints....
I hate that I have to clean out the basement today...the dumpster is paid up until tuesday....and it is a beautiful day.
I want to climb Stone Mountain, instead.
Tomorrow is going to be a zoo....we are no where near completion on the props and I can't imagine my pupils spending winter break going over their lines....who scheduled this play for Tuesday? Well, atleast one of my babies assures me that I can get a sewin for any new bald spots.
waking up tomorrow morning is going to be such a chore.....but, I will benefit from going back to work and the routine....in truth, I miss my hellions!
I hate that my mind keeps going in circles.....I hate feeling so insecure....I want to be me again....the person that is so in charge and laughs all of the time...
Last night we watched Wallace and Grommit...and it was so cute! I fell asleep on top of you....you were so wonderful...then you left to play your video games
Re: this is just me complaining, I plan on doing it here and often sadgirlwhyme: Lome,
Sunday was our day too.
It sounds like yours has some issues same as my ex. He plays video games all day and night?
Mine is Bipolar. When he is normal he is very sweet and loving, when he is manic he gets very obsessive/compulsive and keeps repeating behaviors, such as video games for extended periods, driving his car around in circles for hours and stuff like that.
I love video games but as a normal person I only play a couple hours a day...and he is neglecting things that have to get done? Have you noticed his behavior is off? Maybe you should ask a councelor about his behavior.
Liveing with someone I love that has mental issues for so long I have my eyes and ears out for those symtoms...
it wasnt hard but I got mine to see a psychologist and not he is going to see a psychiatrist to get help...just a thought.
Re: this is just me complaining, I plan on doing it here and often Lome: Well, today the kids all acted like I was insane for thinking that they would remember thier parts in the play tomorrow! Ok...I am insane now!
I came home to a romantic husband that was suductive (Oh my god , I got my hopes up there)...made this great dinner and was all attentive....when I began to respond in turn.....he got weirdly quite, kissed me lightly, and now is on the computer playing his games again....
I am fustrated, kinda depressed, and just confused.
the house is a mess and he did not do a single bit of stuff today.....
plus my paycheck is f8cked...my after school tutorial money is again missing...and we only get paid once a month...thus, if the payments get corrected....then I will only see this money in March....but, that of course means that the money from December and January is also corrected then too.....
I am just too scared to ask him what is really going on in his head now....I am just confused....he tells me he loves me, he is making all of these plans for our future, he is doing these great dinners , and he will not touch me.....
I firmly believe that sex is a barometer in a marriage...and mine is just broke! Between my head doing loops around what is the truth, how could he have done all this sh9t, and now to just feel like I have the pox.....my selfesteem is beginning to falter....
In so many ways it is as if we are just roommates...who have this long history.... the connection feel missing or off somehow...and I do not know how to mend this....
Re: this is just me complaining, I plan on doing it here and often sosad05: [quote"> I am just too scared to ask him what is really going on in his head now....I am just confused[/quote">
Try not be scared to ask for too long. When I reflect back on my marriage, there were things I just let slide and didnt ask. Now, I wish I would have. I wish I could go back to those days and ask/resolve rather than avoid. Avoidance is so much easier. Find out what is going on.
Good luck! :)
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