Re: involved myself with ANOTHER idiot! sadgirl951: As a woman jna I agree.
To make it more general:
Don't look for love, let love find you.
Did I get it right jna?
212, don't lose hope. There's someone out there.
Hope that helps.
LONA
Re: involved myself with ANOTHER idiot! 21218: i know i'm a catch and if a girl can't pick up on it pretty quickly, i'm not intersted ... she must be dumb, or a kid, or want something else totally.
if someone doesn't like me the way i am, exactly the way i am, then i don't want to be with them.
i don't think i went too overboard with the first girl on this post ... i think it was dumb to buy her a ticket ... should've either told her to do it herself or go there myself. i got caught up in the moment(s), i guess.
the reason this thing with the ex hurts so much ... well, still a lot of attachment, understandably ... she's still very close to exactly what i'd want ... and because of the way she is, i have so many unanswered questions, so not 100% closure. the only way i'll get closure on that one is time, time, time.
in my mind i know ... hey, this girl was never going to treat you the way you wanted or deserved to be treated ... probably won't do that for anyone for a long, long time ... but it still sucks to love someone completely and have them crap all over you ... and to know that somehow, someday, they just might be a grown up, responsibile person ... and you won't be there for them. but someone else will be there for me ... i couldn't have done anything more to get the ex to stay around, and as long as she was around this was probably always going to happen and my presence in her life was going to enable her sickness, not let her fix it for herself.
the only way my ex will be better is to get kicked in the ass a couple times and come to the realizations that what i said a decade ago was true, but that it's way, way too late and she threw it all away when she had the chance. meanwhile, i will be deep in the arms of a WOMAN (ie: not a child, not a girl) who loves me.
as far as this other stuff ... i'm not going to lie, i don't really like the airline ticket girl, just trying to slay a couple hoodrats ;) ... the white horse needs to get put in the stable for a while. mostly disappointed that i'm not going to get the chance to mess around with her ... plus getting stuck with the ticket AND her acting like a dick about the whole thing thus far ... just puts more of a bad taste in my mouth re: people in general.
i'm ready to date, but nothing more. i realize that. i didn't have any serious feelings for any of these other girls ... gotta slay some hoodrats to get to the princess, you know ;) ?
Re: involved myself with ANOTHER idiot! 21218: re: accepting me exactly as i am ... i am more than willing to compromise and whatnot within the confines of a relationship, but if someone doesn't like me for the cute and cuddly mess of a person that i am right off the bat, no thanks.
Re: involved myself with ANOTHER idiot! sadgirl951: [quote author=21218 link=topic=26092.msg248707#msg248707 date=1140991660">
accepting me exactly as i am ... i am more than willing to compromise and whatnot within the confines of a relationship, but if someone doesn't like me for the cute and cuddly mess of a person that i am right off the bat, no thanks.
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There you go.
See you got it.
Try and stay away from hoodrats though.
They are too much drama. My xfriends can vouch for that! LOL
Take care!
LONA
