Exorcising your ghost Irony: In a message dated 3/9/06 8:01:55 PM, d________@ghostsfromtherecentpast.com writes:
[quote"> I think the move will be a very positive forward move for both you and M. New
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Yes the move, once we're settled in, will be better than the situation we currently have downtown.
Since the beginning of our separation it's been very painful for you to be two blocks away... you had chosen to be so near and yet so far away.
As for no ghosts...
oh, how I wish, but that's a whole 'nother story altogether.
Those kind of 'ghosts" are something we carry in our minds and in our hearts... in our souls.
Certain ghosts will always be there, no matter where we go, where we live, whoever else is in our lives.
We all have them.
I have lots of ghosts.
I've come to know that the ghosts of the dead are sometimes easier to deal with than the 'ghosts' of those still living.
The trick is to not let them haunt us.
Perhaps you have no 'ghosts' in your new house. If so, I'm genuinely happy for you.
I guess I'm just not that evolved yet.
If love is a choice, why do I still chose to be haunted by the ghost of you, especially in light of the fact that you seem to have obviously shed my 'ghost' so easily?
People tell me I've come along way since you left (even going to take fiddle lessons)...that I'm moving on with my life and handling things so well.
I know I am.
Funny, it doesn't always feel like it though.
Not today.
Yesterday for a while.
Perhaps tomorrow again.
Why do I keep thinking that I'm going to awaken from this twisted dream sometime soon? Why do I still hope and pray that you are going to awaken sometime soon too?
Why do I still think that you are the best thing that's ever happened to me?
You and I had promised that we would grow old together...
I guess we all break promises.
You've walked away,
You've told me your reasons.
Your ghost is still with me.
I pray for exorcism.
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If love is a choice, why do I still chose to be so haunted by the ghost of you, especially in light of the fact that you seem to have obviously shed my 'ghost' so easily?
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Irony, this so beautifully and painfully describes how I feel every day. I wish I could understand how it is that some people can let go of everything and move on so fast while our heads are still spinning in a whirlwind.
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People tell me I've come along way since you left, that I'm moving on with my life and handling things so well.
Funny, it doesn't always feel like that to me.
Not today.
Not tonight.
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I go through this everyday. It is so difficult to see your own progress. I see your progress Irony and it is amazing. I know it doesn't always feel like we are getting anywhere. I've come to cherish the days that I actually do feel it. Try to remember though that if so many other people are seeing it, most likely it isn't imaginary.
Your writing is always touching. It encourages me to think about my own 'ghosts' and how much I want to let them haunt me.
You are strong and you will get through this.
~BB
