Restless Soul yella: For the past couple of weeks I've been plagued by restless dreams with scenarios of me either frantically searching for something, fighting, finding myself lost, and surrounded in total chaos. I can't figure out why really, but I also haven't been able to eat much either. I feel like my soul is restless again, and I don't know what to do about it.
I'm going to the gym here, taking my Benedryl (when I have it), and trying to relax more at home, but I'm still haunted. It might have a lot to do with the fact that I had to change cars again, I don't have any money, and my first court date is in a few weeks. Oh, and maybe the problems T's having in school, that fight with my sister, and trying to figure out my life.
Or maybe it's the fact that I don't feel like I have something special to look forward to, or something easy anyway. I work and I work and I work, but there isn't any rest, and I'm tired. I'm worn out.
I probably just figured out my own problem.
I think I need to make another trip to P-Town. ::)
Ok then... Back to my own head.
Re: Restless Soul brokenbaby: Smiley, I have a book of dreams, it is supposed to help you figure out what the images in your dreams mean. Yours all point to the subconscious feeling that you are not in control of your life. That's what the book says anyway.
One thing at a time girl! You can't save the world all at once. Nor can you heal yourself from all of the things you've been through recently in one day, or even a month...
Take baby steps with me my friend. And we can walk down this damned pothole filled road together. Frost heaves and all!
~BB
Re: Restless Soul yella: I think your book is pretty accurate. I'm not in control of my life right now, at least not most of it. I never was very good with dealing with that. Thank you for checking into that for me. You're a sweetie! :-*
The majority of my life, the larger aspects, are in the hands of other people. Lawyers and judges mainly. Like most of you are going through now.
I go through these cycles when it feels like I've lost control, and this is one of them. This sucks pretty bad.
Think summer... think summer... think summer...
I was supposed to work out today, but I got here an hour late, so I lost that. ::) Now what?
