Hearing your Voice... 2be: My family, friends and doctor were right. I need to be away from you. hearing your voice yesterday opened up my anger again. The cowed sound of your voice, so weak and friendly steeled my heart even more. I'm sorry that I won't accept you back. You hurt me too much and I can't do it anymore.
I loved you with everything in me and you just threw it away. Why? I know you regret what you did. "The cross you have to bear" as you said. Why do I not feel relieved when I hear that remorse in your voice? Why does it just make me more angry?
I"m sorry I said I wanted to be friends with you. Maybe we can still be friendly someday but I just can't see you for a while. It still hurts too much. You're like a drug. Abusive and made me so unhappy and yet I still want to run and comfort when you hurt. Sorry... I can't do it anymore.
I wish I was more of a jerk so I didn't still care how you were feeling. But you obviously didn't care how I felt when you cheated on me and lied to me, 3 years after promising it would never happen again after the first time.
I'm so angry again. I don't want to be angry anymore... I just want to move on wiht my life and remember the good times we had without any more pain.
Re: Hearing your Voice... jadedangel: [color=navy"> I truly hope you are able to do it ... see the good and take it for that ... I wish you the best of luck!
You know ... I have a total opposite effect when I 'hear his voice' .. and I usually long for the anger to just him the hell out of my life ... and find something I don't wish to find ... Only reason I say that is ... use your anger til it resolves ... he is like a drug ... and sadly ... a true addict can never go back for .. 'just a lil bit more' ... [/color">
