Lonliness Horseface: I guess I will put in words how very very bad I feel today. The loneliness that I am experiencing is crushing. At this point in my life, I am in a job that is ending in a few months, I'm isolated from my boys and I'm living in a small one bedroom apartment. I had to leave my wife to avoid another mental breakdown and because of that I have also lost my church and most of my friends.
I have experienced pain before so this is nothing new. The depth of this pain seems to be far deeper than the pain I felt when I buried one of my children, or with the birth of a physically handicapped child. This pain far exceeds how I felt when two years ago that handicapped child was diagnosed with lukemia and we had to come to terms with a life threatning illness. I have also watched my stbxw suffer from an alergic reaction to taking one prescription pill and within 48 hours losing her short term memory and being suicidale for 16 months. I have also dealt with the diagnosis of my stbxw's epilepsy... As I said, I understand pain, but the pain of this divorce and the associated lonliness far exceeds anything I have ever dealt with before. Pain and I are good friends.
I keep hoping that tomorrow will be better. Someday that has to happen.
As for medications, I 'm already on an anti-depressant and I am also seeing a very good counselor. I say that so you all know I am seeking help.
Just where I am today...
Re: Lonliness doseyclwn: Horse,
Saying that I'm sorry will not make things any better, but I know I"m not alone in saying that there are those of us that would be here for you, and that you are welcome to contact me if you need to.
Re: Lonliness sheydp: Oh... love... Thank you for posting. You know I worry about you, and your isolation of late. Please keep opening up, you know I love you, and we have been missing you.
I am sorry so much has been against you lately... Dreams that haven't been coming true, what your ex has been doing to destroy you... You are strong man, though... We know you can SURVIVE this, but we also know you deserve so so so much more. You will have it, too, if I have to find it for you and dump it (her) in your lap.
I love you!!!
Shey
Re: Lonliness C-Note: Horse I know better days are ahead for you. Please have faith in yourself and be strong. Pain and suffering is just one part of life that we must struggle through.
((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))
Re: Lonliness Horseface: Thanks all. I appreciate it. As I said in my previous posts, I have handled tough times before so I am smart enough to know that this too will pass. Its just getting there that is so difficult.
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